I can't wait any longer

[trko]

I already have the SN, but I have been waiting for my antiemetic to finally do it. I ordered it online since it's difficult to get it IRL where I live, but my order was just processed, and shipping can take until the 5th-25th of May. I just simply can't wait that long. I'm in so much pain every single day, each hour of living is tiring and painful, and I just want to end it before the 25th of May. I just can't live like this for another month.

I've decided that I will just take the SN and simply hope I won't throw up. I'm probably going to do it this weekend or somewhere next week.

I just wanted to get this off my chest, and I don't know any place other than here where I can do that. Thank you for reading.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing in this hellish world certainly can be so unbearable so I hope that you find the freedom that you search for, of course there is far too much pain in existing.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Hopefully your Sn batch is big enough to have a second chance (with antiemetic) in case of failure. As Sn is now almost impossible to purchase, I wouldn't make an attempt without antiemetic.

 

[trko]

Hopefully your Sn batch is big enough to have a second chance (with antiemetic) in case of failure. As Sn is now almost impossible to purchase, I wouldn't make an attempt without antiemetic.

I definitely have enough! Got my hands on a large pot somehow. Thanks for wondering!