Yeah... I wish I could be lobotomised of the parts of the brain responsible for empathy. I have so much rage, grief and contempt of humanity and life itself. It has turned to festering hatred. Life is cruel and unjust, rewarding the cruellest of the cruel and the most selfish at the expense of all others. Everyone is suffering, causing others suffering, making the sheer extent of misery and difficulty of existence in unhealthy ways that result in mental illness. And yet everyone still struggles and strives and consumes and breeds senselessly. Perpetuating the savagery and selfishness. Exploiting others for their own carnal hedonism.
I'm antinatalist and efilist. I've been exposed to far too much of life's inherent violence to forgive it. Worse yet that evolution and the selfish gene drive the infinite perpetuation of that violence. Life is an imposition, not a gift. It's imprisonment in a body guaranteed to experience fear and pain and loneliness and disease and old age. And survival instinct will have us all clinging to miserable existence no matter what, at any cost, no matter the degree of suffering or degradation of the body and mind. Our bodies will not let us go easy or calmly, but fight and debase themselves for the sake of one more breath.
Like Socrates said
"This universe doesn't favor the timid"
Im also antinatalist and efilist, but our opinions are nothingg in the grand scheme of things because there is a bigger breeding of idiots.
The majority of people are stupid.
Talks like "life is a gift" is only to brainwash the masses into breeding more. And fucking more. So socitety can have new workers.
Because its the Social Elite that rules this world and they use brainwashing tecchnqieues in media to create fear and masshysteria only to control.
Control and Breed. Thats their motto.
So they can have the money , power and everything.
Yes, it is horrible to be alive. People can be very cruel and are capable of causing lots of pain to others. I cannot stand people and I see it as best to always keep my distance. Life is just pointless suffering, and it is all very unfair, as everything is determined by chance and luck. Many people are disadvantaged through no fault of their own. I see life as being completely unnecessary, we were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to live. I see myself as not being meant for this world, I deserve to be at peace. Death is freedom from all suffering.
People cant be trusted.
People who bully, harass or insult others, often isn't because they dislike that person or believe the things they say to be true. It is often because there is underlying issues with them. These types of people say the things they think will upset you the most. Making you feel worst than they currently do at least gives them the perverted idea that they are now in a better position. It is odd behavior, but when human are upset they often lash out on others. The point of me saying this, is you are a wonderful person and the people who say negative things about you don't do so because the things they say are true, but do so because they are trying to cope with their own issues. The point of this isn't to justify their actions but to make you aware that their actions have nothing to truly do with you.
When you start to understand and see them as broken you can begin putting yourself back together again. Stay strong and align yourself with those who appreciate you and see your true value. Those people are hard to find. Quality is always hard to find.
I got bullied when i was young and its true. They got problems. But the problem is that they are wrecking the bullied persons life.
I can say that those incidents in my life absolutley lay waste to my whole youth causing me to isolate myself because my amygdala got fking shitted on by those acts. And nobody batted an eye. Not even the principal. They let them keep doing their bully work.
