Venting I can't take it, anymore

[overmorrow]

I can't, genuinely, i have nothing left in my life to aspire for, but i understand it, i understand everything now, i understand, and always did, i was just in denial

my body feels so sick lately, i barely can walk, breath or even eat, I'm just laying in bed everyday, and watching movies, I'm scared I'll get a heart attack any second, life is so hard, i crumble under it's weight

me existing was the mistake, giving consciousness, this horrible experience, forcing someone to live, this pain, unmatched, the state of peace, would be perfect, for me