I can't stop..

[Elle]

I honestly cannot stop. It was my birthday on October 4th, and I started drinking since a long long time ago. and Now I can't stop. I keep mixing alcohol with my sleeping meds which knocks me out for a day or even longer. All I can seem to remember are people shaking me and paramedics injecting me with shit in the Ambulance. it honestly is so shit thinking of ways to ease the ongoing agony. :(

 

[STTP]

If you need, we can talk.
Are you hoping you'll die from it one of these days, or just doing it to ease the pain/spend more time asleep than awake? Like a little taste of death, I guess?

 

[Elle]

If you need, we can talk.
Are you hoping you'll die from it one of these days, or just doing it to ease the pain/spend more time asleep than awake? Like a little taste of death, I guess?

Spend more of my time asleep so then at least I don't have to remember shit, you know?
plus. It eases my agony in living life. so even though it is messing my liver up, I won't stop.