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VivaldiBR

VivaldiBR

Experienced
Oct 4, 2020
249
This suffering never ends. more and more I gain courage to do ctb in any method. i think i'm too much of a coward to stay alive, and i'm getting braver for ctb. My mistakes are too big to fix them. I don't even wanna try. Almost years living link a zombie. My mind is so perverse with myself.
 
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_Kaira_

_Kaira_

This Isn't Fine
Oct 2, 2020
825
I also feel a strong need to ctb. All I do is sleep and get on my computer to watch youtube and now post on SS. The only thing I do somewhat productive is take care of my pet mice. I feel so physically and psychologically drained all the time that it's hard to do much else. I wonder when I'm either going to find a reason to get out of this cesspit of sadness, or accept that I wasn't meant to be born and ctb.
 
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VIBRITANNIA

VIBRITANNIA

lelouch. any pronouns. pfp is by pixiv id 3217872.
Aug 10, 2020
1,156
i understand having unfixable mistakes. life is the worst punishment.
 
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VivaldiBR

VivaldiBR

Experienced
Oct 4, 2020
249
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i understand having unfixable mistakes. life is the worst punishment.

I'm fouding very impossible to forgive myself and start life again. This is the most difficult part. Some ppl say i don't have depression, but a difficult to forgive me in by my past mistakes. Now I only can carry on with heavy drugs.
 
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Xocoyotziin

Xocoyotziin

Scorpion
Sep 5, 2020
402
I'm about to hit my limit too. I think very soon.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,551
depression is the worst, I feel for you so much or you and know that we are all here to help one another. Love and peace and sunny days to you my sanctioned suicide global family member:hug::hug::hug::hug:.
 
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Shiro20

Shiro20

Member
Jul 2, 2020
28
I feel you, I feel like I'm already dead cause I exist but I'm not living, all the time at home, I don't like to go out and don't feel like doing anything
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,082
Today was the most depressed I've been in a very long time.
 
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