eatantz
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- Nov 4, 2023
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I recently turned 18 and I feel like a failure. 12 year old me swore that I would be dead by 18, due to my lack of knowledge on different ctb methods and fear of pain here I am....alive. I'm really grateful to have found this site since its inspired me to keep pursuing my goal of death and my new aim is to die way before 30. I need to build up courage and just do it but apart of me still hopes that I'll have an epiphany or something and find happiness. But I don't really have anything worth living for, I'm struggling with getting good enough grades for uni, I have one friend who wouldn't even know if I died and I'm ugly asf + having autism in a ablest society. Its like world is telling me to off myself.
I like to think I'm not alone but I've never met anyone going through the same things as me...
I like to think I'm not alone but I've never met anyone going through the same things as me...