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conflagration
Experienced
- Jul 29, 2022
- 215
I'm out of the psychiatric hospital again. This is the sixth time in my life. New meds, new doses—to numb the BPD pain I've felt my whole life. Today I screamed at my mother for an hour, only to be manipulated, gaslit, and dismissed. I'm unable to work, be in a romantic relationship, or live a normal life. Sooner or later I'm going to catch the bus, so why even bother trying to get out of this crisis?