Venting i cant do this anymore

[idontfeellikeimreal]

I cant do this anymore, im so done, why is everything so fucking hard. Why do people i love hurt me so much. Why does everyone want something from me all of a sudden. And why is everyone mad.
Why do so many people try to talk to me, and how do they manage to make me feel even more lonely than before? How is that even possible. How are they able to ruin my mood by just saying hi.

I feel so alone, I am so lonely. I cannot do this anymore. I want to cut myself and I want to take an overdose, just so everything will stop

 

[bitofftoomuch]

Isolation can be crippling. Can I ask if there was a recent major change in your life?

 

[idontfeellikeimreal]

Isolation can be crippling. Can I ask if there was a recent major change in your life?

Well a lot happened within a few months, I have been SA'd twice this year, broke up with my first abuser in January, I crashed with my new motorcycle after owning it for barely 2 days. Now I am in a relationship with a great guy, he is not toxic and he's nothing like my ex. Which scares me because I'm not used to that.