i can't delay it another year... i just can't. i think 2026 will be it

[xXSufferingXx]

i can't take the pain anymore. just scared of failing.
probably gonna go with full suspension hanging, to make sure of no failed attempt.
and the best way to do that is from a tree.
but i don't wanna upset anyone in public or get found and "saved".

i guess it'll have to be done from a door...
but it seems so uncertain.
will the door hold?
if the door DOES hold, will it guarantee death?
and if the door breaks, then i'll be in an even worse situation than before, financially.

it's so difficult.

 

[hurb]

I think in order to have a successful attempt u have to commit wholeheartedly. U cant thunk of " if the door breaks" etc.because if u do then u have doubt , and if u have doubt u wont commit

 

[xXSufferingXx]

I think in order to have a successful attempt u have to commit wholeheartedly. U cant thunk of " if the door breaks" etc.because if u do then u have doubt , and if u have doubt u wont commit

that's true