I can’t decide!

[Bruces]

I know logically that I have nothing left to live for,yet I can't decide if I should end it,do others feel this way?

 

[Time to fly]

Sometimes I can feel that way if someone makes me promise to help them with something, but mostly it's about counting down days till ctb

 

[OminousVaL]

I believe it is the toughest decision you could make so I understand the uncertainty.

 

[HelloHell]

I feel more like i know i'm gonna end it but the difficult question is when

 

[Sherri]

I feel more like i know i'm gonna end it but the difficult question is when

Same here

 

[TheEndisNear121200]

For me I feel like I have no other choice but to end it.

 

[idk who i am]

I know logically that I have nothing left to live for,yet I can't decide if I should end it,do others feel this way?

yes! actually i don't feel a strong urge to ctb but i feel like there's no other way because my life is already fucked and it'll become only worse. I don't want any furter suffering, but i don't want to die either. pretty shitty situation, i think i understand you. before joining ss i thought I'm the only one

 

[Huntfish34]

Know what you mean sadly,. I really don't want to but I feel that I must.. And possibly do the world a favor in the process. Who knows. =\

 

[LostSoul101]

A way to think about it: imagine if you found out you had a terminal illness and were about to drop dead from it. How would you feel? Ready to go with the decision made for you by nature or not?

 

[darksideofthebright]

I totally feel you.

Over the past month, I have had all sorts of emotions, from feeling determined, calm, content and ready to feeling exhausted, freaked out, hesitant and sorry. I try to stay as rational as I possible can but regardless of how I feel, one thought always stand out is: "A part of me wants to live, a bigger part of me refuses to have to go through another day feeling all of these emotions".

Choosing to end your life can be a process. Just think about it but be sure to prioritise yourself and your feelings; because at the end of the day, it is your life and you deserve to make your own decision. I hope you can come to whatever decision that is of your best interests.

 

[liluglibih]

Kinda. I would do it now, the only thing stopping me is the fear of pain.. which is normal I guess lol. I don't care about leaving anything behind

 

[Bruces]

I'm still procrastinating on it pretty much every minute of everyday it's driving me crazy,I often wish the decision could be taken from me!