Venting I can't cry

[Claymore7274]

I feel so miserable, i start my day thinking about hanging myself, i end the day just the same, dark, sad thoughts that bring me down but i can't get myself to cry. I want a release, a catharsis, so bad. Years back i was feeling the angsty teen kinda depression, i would cry daily, but i'd hold my tears.
Now as an adult i can't even if i want to.

I'm stuck in this terrible state of bitterness, anger, frustration. I WANT TO CRY

 

[Forever Sleep]

Can you prompt it? Any songs or scenes from films make you cry? I'll sometimes listen to a song I know will set me off (there are lots) to get the emotion out.

 

[Claymore7274]

Can you prompt it? Any songs or scenes from films make you cry? I'll sometimes listen to a song I know will set me off (there are lots) to get the emotion out.

It used to work with some songs but not anymore :(

 

[NoPoint2Life]

Are you on any meds? That can play a
huge part.
Been there. Was on no meds and cried hysterically all the time. On meds now and I can barely get my eyes to tear up. Both suck and are embarrassing.

 

[Claymore7274]

Are you on any meds? That can play a
huge part.
Been there. Was on no meds and cried hysterically all the time. On meds now and I can barely get my eyes to tear up. Both suck and are embarrassing.

No, i'm currently not taking any meds

 

[kuroshimi]

As very emotional person I used to cry a lot. Every small inconvenience made me deeply sad. I never held my tears. Probably a symptom of depression ig.

But now I feel like something is holding me back and I can't cry even if I want to.

 

[Claymore7274]

As very emotional person I used to cry a lot. Every small inconvenience made me deeply sad. I never held my tears. Probably a symptom of depression ig.

But now I feel like something is holding me back and I can't cry even if I want to.

It gets real frustrating, specially when you're at bed trying to sleep and stupid shit comes to mind

 

[Unlucky777]

I was unable to cry for a very long time and I still struggle with it. After taking those God damn antipsychotics for 10+ years, all my emotions have been blunted. Are you taking any meds that may be impacting your ability to cry?

 

[honeythunder]

The harder things get for me the harder it is to cry. Then things will get better and I'll cry over something stupid. Life is strange. Your body is probably in survival mode

 

[Terrible_Life]

I also can't cry. Maybe we are emotional numb after too much suffering and our brain got used to the feeling of being tortured mentally day after day after day….

 

[Sadbanana]

Crying gets harder the more pain you are in, because you need to dissociate more. I wish I could give you some good advice but I also can't cry anymore.

What used to help me was making sure I'm completely alone and nobody can hear me. I got blanket over me, play a sad song and remind myself some sad memories.