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- May 16, 2026
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the relationship with the person i care most about is so strained and it feels like she's given up on me and acts like i'm already dead. i'm currently visiting her but i'm mainly sitting in her room for the whole day because she's busy, but even when she does have free time, she hangs out with her other friends or just acts distant or cold towards me. i just want to cry and go home.
i don't want to explain my situation right now, but i practically have no future after graduation which is next year. i really want to ctb this summer but i want my birthday to pass to maybe feel loved again from the person i care about. my birthday is only a few days before the new school year, so i'd likely have to wait til winter break to ctb instead. i just cant bare it anymore for another 7 months because i know everyday is going to be awful.
part of me hopes that maybe our relationship will improve and id have the courage to stay til my graduation to see her one more time, but i think our relationship is too strained.
i don't want to explain my situation right now, but i practically have no future after graduation which is next year. i really want to ctb this summer but i want my birthday to pass to maybe feel loved again from the person i care about. my birthday is only a few days before the new school year, so i'd likely have to wait til winter break to ctb instead. i just cant bare it anymore for another 7 months because i know everyday is going to be awful.
part of me hopes that maybe our relationship will improve and id have the courage to stay til my graduation to see her one more time, but i think our relationship is too strained.
