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tbroken
Wizard
- Feb 22, 2024
- 682
It is over, i know from many years already, but I somehow convinced myself to try to be happy. As i already knew, I failed badly and from 1 year more or less, I decided to ctb.
I gathered all the resources for SN, but i left my bag with all the ctb material in my car and it was stolen from someone, idk if they were my parents, vicious neighbors or drug addicted neighbors. Now it seems it became really more difficult to gather the resources once again and i really dk what to do. Can someone pm me a good EU resource for SN or suggest me somehow some other painless method to safely ctb in this really hot summer?
My situation is really bad, I'm totally void and broken in this period of my life and nobody takes me seriously, my parents play for themselves or worst for the opposite team. I was a really good person, funny, determined and good in my stuff... but bad family, bad friends and bad circumstances ruined my peaceful life and there is NO WAY i can get back to the person i was, nor i want to become someone else. My pain is so big that i try to sleep as much as i can to totally avoid life.
Reading these lines you can think: 'if you are so desperate, why you just don't end your life with any method? The pain will be for some minutes and then it will all be over...'
The answer is simple: i really suffered too much and i don't want to suffer anymore, I don't want to fail and end up in worst conditions.
When i gathered SN resources, I was so happy that for the first time of my life i was in total control, but now that they were stolen, my desperation is beyond infinite.
I really never asked anything to anyone and i would say that i was a real warrior in this life, please help me guys, i just want to end my suffering.
It is not essential that the EU source send the package to my house, i can also travel... I'm really determined to ctb and I would do anything to succeed.
I gathered all the resources for SN, but i left my bag with all the ctb material in my car and it was stolen from someone, idk if they were my parents, vicious neighbors or drug addicted neighbors. Now it seems it became really more difficult to gather the resources once again and i really dk what to do. Can someone pm me a good EU resource for SN or suggest me somehow some other painless method to safely ctb in this really hot summer?
My situation is really bad, I'm totally void and broken in this period of my life and nobody takes me seriously, my parents play for themselves or worst for the opposite team. I was a really good person, funny, determined and good in my stuff... but bad family, bad friends and bad circumstances ruined my peaceful life and there is NO WAY i can get back to the person i was, nor i want to become someone else. My pain is so big that i try to sleep as much as i can to totally avoid life.
Reading these lines you can think: 'if you are so desperate, why you just don't end your life with any method? The pain will be for some minutes and then it will all be over...'
The answer is simple: i really suffered too much and i don't want to suffer anymore, I don't want to fail and end up in worst conditions.
When i gathered SN resources, I was so happy that for the first time of my life i was in total control, but now that they were stolen, my desperation is beyond infinite.
I really never asked anything to anyone and i would say that i was a real warrior in this life, please help me guys, i just want to end my suffering.
It is not essential that the EU source send the package to my house, i can also travel... I'm really determined to ctb and I would do anything to succeed.
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