i believe i'm really near to close the curtains of my pathetic life

[NothingElseMatters]

after 29 years of frustration and self harm. better late than never.

 

[DrownFeather]

After 19 years i confirm too, for me it's better now than late

 

[SpaceCadet]

After 20 years of a pathetic life, yes i'm joining you guys too

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I know that it can be unbearable when things are hopeless. I hope you find peace and relief from pain in whatever happens.

 

[deathbydragon]

I'm in the last 1% of my life, that's for sure

 

[rationaltake]

I get it.

 

[ikadasui]

It's intolerable anymore to see happy and beautiful people now. I can't stomach it. the pain can't be put into words knowing you're unintelligent, ugly and maimed and will be lonely and in pain forever. You have to see people living quality even normal lives everyday when you go out and then you have to acknowledge you're lack of one all the more

 

[Why Me?]

After I lost my faith, this is how I feel too. thanks for sharing, I see that I'm not alone. It's terrible. I'm not a jealous person, people should enjoy their happiness, but why do I have to suffer? Who wants to live like this?

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Yeah this sucks it's time to bounce

 

[GongLiFang]

I feel the same way. My life situation changed so now my suicide plans really have jumped into gear and I can not see myself for living much longer. But there is something nice about knowing I won't have to suffer much longer.

 

[Red Scare]

 

[TEJESHWI]

Yes in life everything is Closed when you are in nearer to end life

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It's intolerable anymore to see happy and beautiful people now. I can't stomach it. the pain can't be put into words knowing you're unintelligent, ugly and maimed and will be lonely and in pain forever. You have to see people living quality even normal lives everyday when you go out and then you have to acknowledge you're lack of one all the more

I can understand how difficult and devastating that can be for someone. On the other hand, I'm actually happy (for other people) when I see others who actually got happiness, and even beauty, success, a life in general, etc. I don't blame them for what I don't have. Actually, I don't blame anyone, including myself. I think it's just the luck of the draw, and in order to have good, you have to have bad, too. There has to be balance in the world. I think it's built in to our existence, our universe, our place in all this, whatever that is. This is not meant to detract from the very real miseries that we experience on a day to day basis, or our absolutely justifiable desire to leave this miserable place and be set free from our pain, misery, loneliness, whatever it is that we are experiencing in our own personal existence. I just can't be angry at others who managed to get what I desire, whether it was only through just a happenstance of good gene arrangement, or through their own hard work, both, or other legitimate means.