erdbeeren
Student
- Oct 13, 2021
- 100
I am currently working on a project for a contest. I've invested many hours into it to make sure it is as good as it can (realistically) be. It's been the focus of my efforts for a week or so. So much work and it's flown under the radar.
This is nothing new. I could be a perfect little angel and never make mistakes, but as soon as I have the tiniest fuckup, I am belittled and gaslighted.
I am absolutely perplexed as to why I even bother at this point. I am aware that my life is pointless and meaningless. I know how it will all end. I know that this is only the start of a perpetual loop of: work->stress->money->other pointless shit->repeat .
I'm just exhausted, but I only have another month to go I guess.
This is nothing new. I could be a perfect little angel and never make mistakes, but as soon as I have the tiniest fuckup, I am belittled and gaslighted.
I am absolutely perplexed as to why I even bother at this point. I am aware that my life is pointless and meaningless. I know how it will all end. I know that this is only the start of a perpetual loop of: work->stress->money->other pointless shit->repeat .
I'm just exhausted, but I only have another month to go I guess.