I am such a wimp

[insomuchpain316]

I am literally suffering everyday...terminal cancer and brain injury that causes extreme pain and it's only going to get worse the longer I wait. I can't make myself CTB though. I am scared of failing. It's a horrible situation to be in that I never saw coming in this life. The smart thing to do is for me to end my suffering and CTB I just can't do it though.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is not cowardly feeling as if you are unable to ctb as we are programmed to survive. I am also scared of failing. We deserve an option of euthanasia, a peaceful exit on our own terms. I'm sorry you are suffering, life is so cruel and unfair. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I am really sorry you are going through so much pain everyday. Sadly nothing any of us can say will help you to end your life. It is a personal battle that everyone has to take it for themselves.

 

[forgotten15]

I am so sorry for your suffering. You are definitely not a wimp. Ctb-ing is a hard thing to do and it implies not only overcoming SI, but also a lot of emotional torment. Even though i have nothing to live for and my existence is just hurting and emptiness i am so afraid of ending my life. All i ask for is to somehow gather my courage to do it. I hope this moment will come as soon as possible. I hope your pain gets eased.

 

[insomuchpain316]

Thank you all for the replies.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

This is cruel! This just really hurts my heart . I am so sorry for your suffering. The pain sounds unbearably excruciating. Is there a way for you to get a painless method? This is so cruel.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

I'm really sorry for your pain and suffering. Dont blame yourself, its a very hard thing to overcome SI. I hope you find peace.