Venting I am so isolated that it'll probably take days or weeks to find me

[synthetic_suicide]

As per the subject. I don't know how to feel, I see and it makes sense that everybody with a plan, will take care about not being rescued in time. But doesn't feel extra-painful that there's nobody that really cares about checking if you're there, alive or dead?

Does somebody can relate to this?

 

[cait_sith]

Yes, I relate, the only people that would notice I'm dead would be neighbours smelling my already rotten corpse, if I'd do it at home.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

Yes same here, relatable!

 

[Bruce]

As per the subject. I don't know how to feel, I see and it makes sense that everybody with a plan, will take care about not being rescued in time. But doesn't feel extra-painful that there's nobody that really cares about checking if you're there, alive or dead?

Does somebody can relate to this?

I would like to be in your situation. Living around people does not mean that anyone notices or that anyone cares about you. Actually if you do get noticed most people will just find some way to hurt you. It's also close to impossible to kill yourself, or at least it is without causing too much ruckus. Living alone, somewhere far, far away would make this better.

 

[WanderingGypsy]

I can relate to this! A while back I didn't respond to my texts or messages for a while to see if anyone noticed or reached out, and it took two days for someone to reach out. But it was my sister and we talk even less now. I live alone (except for my dog), and live in an apartment connected to my neighbors garage so it would take at least a few days for them to notice if I died at home. But if I did it when they were on vacation it could be even longer.
But i also don't want them to find me which could cause more trauma to them and I don't want that either. I've thought about doing it in a hotel and making sure my check out isn't for at least a day after I ctb. And putting a sheet up with a note warning housekeeping what happened.
Sorry I got off topic-but this is something I've been thinking about more as I want to ctb sooner.
I find being alone is helpful in that situation but also really sad knowing I'm so alone.