I am really scared

[crybaby]

I am 18 years old. Recently, due to an epidemic, I was unemployed and unable to find a job. My father and brother always abuse me. They also don't give me money to buy food. I don't have any money anymore. All I can do is suicide.But i don't have money to go to the hotel. I know that my brother has some valuable collections, and they can be sold easily. I plan to sell his collection, and then use the money to stay in the hotel to ctb.

That collectible is very important to my brother.
Even if he hurt me so much, I still don't want to hurt him. I don't know why I feel guilty.
At the same time, I was also afraid of being discovered by my brother about what I was doing. I hope someone can give me some encouragement

(Sorry, i use google translate)

 

[RedHarlequin]

Have you thought about taking a small loan? I did that to buy N, I hadn't even ever been employed at that time.

 

[whywere]

Hi @crybaby. 1st off You ARE family to me and I have alot of empathy and encouragement for you.2nd you are only 18, I am 65 years young and I like almost everyone has had their ups and downs. I have lived in a car and had to think if I wanted to spend my last money on petrol or food. Been there done that. Now with that said you are a bright, loving and caring person, your post tells that loud and clear. You have alot to give this world and YOURSELF. I 100% believe in YOU and that you have a great future in front of you. Speaking of my past, I put petrol in my car and ate crackers that a friend gave me and water to tide over but I made it and you can to. I send you all my love and SUPPORT knowing that you will make it!! Walter

 

[MyrSS]

I'm sorry but I will not encourage stealing for it.

Also, not having a job right now seems like a temporary thing to ctb over. Maybe you can distance yourself from those family members.

If you don't mind sharing, what ways do they abuse you?

What other things are making you want to CTB?

Please think long and hard about the decision first.

If you still are determined to ctb then what makes the hotel important for your ctb? Is there any other place maybe you can try? Isolated in forest? Or in own house while they are away?

 

[StringPuppet]

Personally I think I'd just sell his stuff since he was abusive, but if your gut is telling you not to then you should listen to it and maybe consider a different place

 

[WornOutLife]

Oh dear, your words have broken my heart.
I'm so sorry you're dealing with this.

You're just 18! Of course you have no money!! Damn world. It's so unfair.

Well, as suggested above, you could try to get a loan or ask somebody for some money.
Also, you could look for online jobs. I have a friend from Venezuela who makes a living typing online captchas and completing surveys.

Anyway, I really hope you can sort things out.

Feel free to pm me if you need to talk.

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[◄✵火✵〇°Ø•WÅR•Ī°〇✵火✵►]

So sorry you're going through this, op... Your situation sounds really unfair. Honestly, you should do what feels right/best to you and stand firm in your decision, whatever it is.

Wishing you peace & all the best.

Take care.

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[Parnate]

@crybaby050900 r u still there dear.?
Felt sad reading this. But you ate 18 and that age I wasn't even capable enough of doing a job. Hope you r fine

 

[FuneralCry]

This is an old thread and the op has not been seen for a long time. I hope they found relief from their suffering.

 

[Of The Universe]

Yes,she states that she took SN and was getting dizzy,in her last post. I guess she successfully ctb!

 

[Lullaby]

Oh wow, her last thread has me feeling really emotional…she wasn't ready to go. I feel horrible.

 

[Parnate]

I am trying to view this person's profile but can't. Why is it so?

 

[FuneralCry]

I am trying to view this person's profile but can't. Why is it so?

If an users name is crossed out it means that they are not a member of the forum anymore which is probably why you cannot view the profile. Some users have their profile set on private, so people cannot view it anyway. The OP of this thread is believed to have ctb so I don't think that if there is much point trying to contact them if that's what you are doing.

 

[bammer]

I am trying to view this person's profile but can't. Why is it so?

Because they were banned if you want to look at their last post then narrow down the searches using filter. Search using their name.