Venting I am not made for this world

[Saki]

I wake up daily with extreme stress. Especially in the mornings and at night my suicidal thoughts are the worst. It hurts. Not even my medication helps me. I'm unable to get help without being on a damn waiting list. I crumble at the slightest rejection or get triggered so fast by certain things. It hurts me. I don't want to keep going with this broken brain. I can't. I want to die.
I started keeping my life in check but honestly that's no use. I just want it to end.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also see myself as not meant for any of this, I understand just wanting to be free from all the suffering, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Kimlett]

I feel you. I am totally not made for this world either. There's just to many things to feel bad about and few things to feel good. This place is messed up. I hope you can find some peace.

 

[mysticatedwine]

I wake up daily with extreme stress. Especially in the mornings and at night my suicidal thoughts are the worst. It hurts. Not even my medication helps me. I'm unable to get help without being on a damn waiting list. I crumble at the slightest rejection or get triggered so fast by certain things. It hurts me. I don't want to keep going with this broken brain. I can't. I want to die.
I started keeping my life in check but honestly that's no use. I just want it to end.

I also see myself as not meant for any of this, I understand just wanting to be free from all the suffering, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

I feel you. I am totally not made for this world either. There's just to many things to feel bad about and few things to feel good. This place is messed up. I hope you can find some peace.

Seems all four of us are in the same boat... My peace feels too fragile when confronted to the things that hurt me. Isolation, the instability of our society, my brain screwed-up from all the constant stimulation. It's too much. I never get to catch my breath... I don't have a lot to believe in.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

I would trade you my powerful will to live, if I could. It's just getting on my nerves, personally. Anyone want it? It's a firesale. My life must go!