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sometimesoon
Member
- Jul 9, 2024
- 51
Hi Everyone
I am new here, though I have been lurking in the background for a long time. But now I think it's time to be serious and share with other people with similar feelings
My preferred method is hanging or partial suspension. I did make a serious attempt not that long ago, but because I was clumsy, I didn't tie the anchor well enough. I did lose consciousness but I woke up with a bloody nose and blood on the floor. I had to pull myself up from the floor with a bad headache, and bruises around my neck that I had to hide for a week or so.
But it did confirm my feelings that I intend to cancel my future, and it's the right thing for me to do.
Now it's just getting up the courage to do it again with a better knot.
I wish I had some story that explains these feelings, but I don't. I have had a relatively okay existence but there is just this nagging feeling that CTB is the way to go.
Do others have what they think is a normal existence but still have the urge to CTB?
I am new here, though I have been lurking in the background for a long time. But now I think it's time to be serious and share with other people with similar feelings
My preferred method is hanging or partial suspension. I did make a serious attempt not that long ago, but because I was clumsy, I didn't tie the anchor well enough. I did lose consciousness but I woke up with a bloody nose and blood on the floor. I had to pull myself up from the floor with a bad headache, and bruises around my neck that I had to hide for a week or so.
But it did confirm my feelings that I intend to cancel my future, and it's the right thing for me to do.
Now it's just getting up the courage to do it again with a better knot.
I wish I had some story that explains these feelings, but I don't. I have had a relatively okay existence but there is just this nagging feeling that CTB is the way to go.
Do others have what they think is a normal existence but still have the urge to CTB?