Venting I am losing the last bits of sanity

[zekeyaeger]

I need to kill myself asap, or I will become incapable of it mentally.

 

[AnderDethsky]

I need to kill myself asap, or I will become incapable of it mentally.

I know this. I would swear that I had at least a few of these "windows" a year when I was ready to die and all it took to succeed was a few my cold-blooded moves. But I didn't do it, I decided to took my time with it and then I just distracted myself with something and again forgot my CTB fuel.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find peace.