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itachi of death
Student
- Aug 17, 2020
- 139
Im gonna get personal because why not,my sister(actually my cousin)accidentally killed herself from bdsm she was only 22,it killed my uncle he smokes alot just to keep going,anyways I tried lower suspension and only become unconscious woke up when my ex slapped me in the face and walk off and told me to untie myself,I created a life for myself other people wish they had and it turns out I never enjoyed any of it,even when I've was going good I ruined it because I wasn't happy,can't ever achieve happiness its like your reaching for a ball and you get inches away and you never touch it ever,even if all you have to do is reach forward but you don't want to,or your will doesn't want to get better all it wants is dark and death.but I have people and kids that depend on me,and thats why I have to live,which just makes me more angry and full of hatred because I hate this world,I hate how people treat each other ,and so on.so I plan on ctb when my kids turn 18 and I taught they everything I know and teach them everything about surviving in this cruel world.i know its selfish of me but,my whole life I've been unselfish and it has fucked me over everytime.so one time in my life im going to be selfish and ctb and I wish everyone a happy or content life,