i almost died

[cherrybubblegum]

it was an accident but it wasn't.
i hadn't eaten all day. took a handful of my meds. at first it was nice, i was sedated i was laying down. then i fainted twice and hit my head. the drop in blood pressure was scary, i was thinking about how i was gonna die. i was conflicted. spoiler alert i didn't die, but i don't know how to feel now. tired, dizzy. whatever.
i ate now and drank water, i'm somehow still too anxious to fall asleep. my body craves sleep.

 

[peaceindeath]

It will be nice to be dead. No more worries sadness

 

[leftdreaming]

When you thought you'd die, how did it feel? Was there any SI?

Hope you are doing alright.

 

[cherrybubblegum]

When you thought you'd die, how did it feel? Was there any SI?

Hope you are doing alright.

it was scary because it came on pretty quick. i was standing up to use the bathroom. i could feel my blood pulsing in my head and my vision was spotty. once i was laying down and closing my eyes, i was fine with it.
so i was scared for sure but also it was because i was not entirely prepared or in an ideal position. it's scary to feel your body giving up.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that if I was close to death but somehow I survived I would be so disappointed, it's horrible how people can suffer so much yet still not die, it sounds like a really awful experience what you've been through, I don't think that's a reliable suicide method though. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

Don't do anything impromptu. We all deserve to exit on our own terms.

 

[Worndown]

Welcome to the world of drug interactions. Yours must need you to eat. Hiw do you feel now?