I accepted death .... but death rejected me lol

[nopointofliving]

It is really funny, yet painful. I accepted my death, I'm chasing it...it's running away from me.
I'm lying down on bed... preparing, planning and reading...I'm really tired already, yet this planning gives me unbearable headaches.

Failing attempts scare me the most, and every possible method for me has failing possibilities. So yeah, if I failed, I would be a happy vegetable.

I picked the shallow water blackout method, and I just read about the pain of drowning. They say it takes about 19 min to die in bathtub with agony 79. Really?

Suicide itself is a crucial decision, and if I'm going to do it, I need to risk many things including my worse situation. It's like accepting to exchange my bad situation with worse one in case of failing.

Again I'm hanging between life snd death.

 

[FuneralCry]

If only we lived in a world where suicide is accepted and we could end our suffering and pass away peacefully. We need a right to die. It really is hard to die especially as we are wired to survive at all costs. I would love to just fall into an eternal sleep. It holds me back too, how an attempt can go wrong. I wish you the best and I hope there is a way for you to find peace.

 

[lanax09]

I picked the shallow water blackout method, and I just read about the pain of drowning. They say it takes about 19 min to die in bathtub with agony 79. Really?

SWB avoids the pain of drowning by making you faint before you drown

 

[WornOutLife]

Same here, dear. Death doesn't seem to want to take me away yet.
As for the failing part, yes, it sucks. Be sure to be 100% sure you wanna do this and think of every single possibility.

Whatever happens, wish you lots of love and peace!!!

Hugs,

Matt

 

[BlankUser]

I'm thinking of doing it at night in a lake or sea. I'm worried that someone might see me and decide to "save" me. It's so hard that we don't have the right to die. If pro lifers wanna live, then they can live their precious lives, why are they taking our rights away. Not everyone can be happy, for some it never gets better.