Alwaysbadtime
Enlightened
- Jun 28, 2021
- 1,158
I'm fucked. I know this. I am pissed about the present moment, past and future. Today my bf took off for day 2 of a party. He said he would be back in the evening. Texted saying he is spending the night. I handle being alone very poorly. I do nothing and it's horrible. Yesterday he and I went to the party. It was trigger after trigger. I think I told too many people how fucked I am and was paranoid it would get back to him. I don't think so. My bf is Mr. Talkative Happy...Last night he and I stayed up and got high (not pot) and I talked about my idea of 'going'. He explained how it would unravel his existence. It's just so lame...and sad...
I truly have nothing to do except feel like shit and feel fearful.
I'm super pissed and sad. What I talked about with others at the party was sad and embarrassing.
I want to tell him to come back and not spend the night, but I don't think he would and he would be really pissy if he came back early on my account.
Everyday is the worst day ever and I know it can get much worse.
I truly have nothing to do except feel like shit and feel fearful.
I'm super pissed and sad. What I talked about with others at the party was sad and embarrassing.
I want to tell him to come back and not spend the night, but I don't think he would and he would be really pissy if he came back early on my account.
Everyday is the worst day ever and I know it can get much worse.