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moon_

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May 18, 2026
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So I have this weird idea of looking beautiful after I die. I know it's shallow, but it's my death. I even know which dress I want to wear, how I will do my makeup, things like that.
If I ctb with Sn how will I look? Will I vomit after loosing consciences? I know I will be kind of blue, but I'm okay with that.
Honestly I kinda want to do it by inert gas, but I don't have the money or the privacy for that.
Any other ideas?
 
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E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
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From what i've read you look pale with blueish lips/fingertips.

Not sure about puking on yourself though.
 
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E4syW3y0u7

E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
237
Maybe they're ok with puke on themselves. Shrug.
Well puke isn't pretty, but i suppose it's mostly liquid so kinda look like a wet spot.

I guess you mosly look undisturbed if you follow protocol.
 
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Bishop

This is the way
Mar 24, 2024
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Well puke isn't pretty, but i suppose it's mostly liquid so kinda look like a wet spot.

I guess you mosly look undisturbed if you follow protocol.
I just thought she meant her physical body.
 
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moon_

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May 18, 2026
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Oh thank you, that's useful.
@Bishop is right, I would preffer no puking, but it's okay.
 
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interna

Gone Tomorrow, Here Today
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47 year old female
In the external examination, general signs of asphyxia were noticed. Bluish and slightly brownish hypostasis, which was prominent on the face and thighs, was present. The blood and all tissues were somewhat darker in appearance than usual.
37 year old male
The results of the autopsy showed general signs of asphyxia, such as intense cyanosis of the extremities, brown-gray-blue-red livor mortis, and some Tardieu petechiae in addition to intense visceral congestion. The most relevant autoptic findings were the general signs of asphyxia, such as intense scleral congestion (Fig. 2A) and cyanosis of the extremities (Fig. 2B), namely hands and lips, and brown-gray-blue-red livor mortis in various parts of the body (Fig. 2C), some Tardieu petechiae in addition to intense polyvisceral congestion. The blood was tinted a chocolate brown color. Histological examination revealed only nonspecific changes, such as pulmonary edema and coronary artery disease without major expression.
21 year old male
Autopsy findings showed lip erosions, hemorrhage, and perioral and peripheral cyanosis. Internal examination showed characteristic bright red muscle discoloration, dark brown arterial blood, red-brown congested visceral organs, and hyperemic esophageal and gastric mucosa.
20 year old female
The preliminary report of the autopsy describes, among other aspects, a series of signs such as a chocolate blood colour, purple patches on inclined planes or oedematous lungs when cut. These signs agree with other cases of methaemoglobinemia.
other cases
In 39 cases, a post-mortem examination was performed. On external inspection, lividity varied in color from bluish red to mottled purple–gray; intense cyanosis of the face and extremities (up to gunmetal gray) was also highlighted. The autopsy revealed the presence of extremely thin and chocolate-colored blood and brown-colored organs—mainly the heart, kidneys, and liver—as well as whitish and paste-like residues in the gastric lumen; sometimes, these findings were associated with pulmonary and cerebral edema.

Microscopic examinations were carried out in only five cases. Histopathology revealed alterations related to comorbidities (myocardial fibrosis, coronary artery disease), signs of hypoxia (early myocardial ischemia), and non-specific findings (pulmonary edema).
 
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Lithuania, 2013

"In addition to the aforementioned nitrite, the analysis detected amphetamine and moderate levels of alcohol..."

"...During the autopsy, doctors found very specific signs characteristic of this type of poisoning. The blood in the heart and postmortem cyanosis on the body had a characteristic chocolate-brown color, which is a direct result of the poison's effect on blood pigments. In addition, severe swelling of the brain and lungs was detected." In the photo, everything looks a little worse, but overall, you'll look great.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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Not good. The vomiting will probably happen before loss of consciousness… almost guaranteed, but death is not pretty anyway.
 
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