how was your new years eve? i likely have had my last new years eve

[SufferingInDenmark]

i was supossed to catch the bus last year, wimped out.
but the suffering is so bad i might just have to end myself this year, maybe.

 

[Deepdense]

My New Years has been meh. It was too cold to do much. What did you do for New Years?

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

My New Years has been meh. It was too cold to do much. What did you do for New Years?

i was at a house party with some old friends, went home pretty early.
nice enough to hang out there a while tho

 

[Terrible_Life]

Mine was horrible….I had a panic attack and when it happened the neww year and all the firework etc I was alone in my room occupied by huge anxiety and also sadness. I kinda had flashbacks to new year 2018 idk why maybe because back then it all was so different i had a life not a good one no absolutely not but still i had my life driven by lies and illusions that what i am doing is good and will led to a bright future hahah gosh i wish i could've known back then how horribly everything would change just not even 1 year later if i knew it back then i would have sat in my car and driven to a high building and jumped and prevented the downfall so many horrible low points would have never happened….

 

[maylurker]

my family burst into my room as expected and annoyed me while i wass laying down and rotting

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

Its not yet the new year but I'm at home but plan to head out in a bit.

 

[sanctionedusage]

im home alone since everyone went out for a party and im in a good mood

i wouldve liked to just go outside and hang myself from our oak tree but its waaaay too cold

 

[Deepdense]

im home alone since everyone went out for a party and im in a good mood

i wouldve liked to just go outside and hang myself from our oak tree but its waaaay too cold

Why does the cold stop you?

 

[maylurker]

im home alone since everyone went out for a party and im in a good mood

i wouldve liked to just go outside and hang myself from our oak tree but its waaaay too cold

why you giving everyone hugs and hit me with a

 

[sanctionedusage]

why you giving everyone hugs and hit me with a

i felt like being difficult

Why does the cold stop you?

i have a personal aversion to it lol. i dont even step out of the front door from november to march. besides that, i dont want to be wearing a ton of heavy layers while im also suffocating and cutting off blood supply, itd be too uncomfortable and claustrophobic for my last moments.

 

[maylurker]

i felt like being difficult

 

[Deepdense]

i felt like being difficult


i have a personal aversion to it lol. i dont even step out of the front door from november to march. besides that, i dont want to be wearing a ton of heavy layers while im also suffocating and cutting off blood supply, itd be too uncomfortable and claustrophobic for my last moments.

So what are your plans for the night?

 

[sanctionedusage]

So what are your plans for the night?

wpd and sleep

 

[Deepdense]

wpd and sleep

Not exactly what I had imagined but do what you do.

 

[DarkJason]

I was also planning to kill myself last year but ended up delaying my plans for the millionth time now. I'm probably going to kill myself in February or March because I just really can't take this dogshit existence anymore tbh. I've spent the past week visiting family. It feels kind of weird knowing that this is most likely the last time I will see them and they have no idea.

 

[hellogoodbye999]

i was supossed to catch the bus last year, wimped out.
but the suffering is so bad i might just have to end myself this year, maybe.

The day was messy from the start. Work was annoying, money stuff stressed me out, plans kept changing, and I already felt like the night was going to be wasted. My family and I were meant to go to a church thing, but we went to the wrong one, so that fell through. We ended up back home, went to Maccas, and I just felt frustrated because I didn't want to spend New Year's stuck in my room doing nothing.

I kept comparing myself to other people online and thinking about what I could've been doing, which just made me feel worse. Later on, we went for a late drive, and that helped a bit. While I was out, I randomly messaged my mate Jason someone I've known for a while asking if he wanted to have a couple beers.

I went over to his place around 1am, but he was already asleep. Instead, I ended up hanging out with his older brother and his friends people who went to my high school but graduated earlier. They were super chill and welcoming. We talked, played music, joked around, and it actually felt comfortable. No pressure, no weird vibes.

I had a few beers, but I paced myself and stayed aware. For once, I didn't do anything stupid. We went to Maccas, they shouted me food, we caught an Uber home together, and I even saw some fireworks. It wasn't crazy or flashy, but it felt real.

By the time I got home, I realised the night didn't go how I expected it went better. I didn't feel ashamed, I didn't regret anything, and I didn't feel like I embarrassed myself. It felt like a quiet turning point. Not the best New Year's ever, but one where I actually felt present and learned something about myself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Every second in this existence is torturous, dreadful suffering, no matter what I'll just always see it as an abomination to suffer in this painful, cruel and deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as a mistake, all that this existence ever does is just cause endless amounts of harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, to be conscious in this existence is always so painful and terrible.

No matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this harmful existence, existence itself to me is the true problem and I just always suffer so unbearably from existing in this horrific reality where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, all that existence ever does is just cause harm and suffering, existence is just so evil to me and the fact that humans cause so much suffering by tragically imposing this existence is always the most terrible, devastating tragedy, only non-existence is positive to me, I just always suffer from being so cruelly denied the option to never exist ever again.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I slept through the night and woke up this morning.

 

[catsalvation]

12.31 was fine, I exercised, did some self care, I even bought a face mask, watched a good movie (ironically "Contact"), and then just waited the clock to turn. After that I got sad immediately, because noone wished me a Happy New Year. I wondered, if this will be my last NYE, and so on... New year, no me. Then slept and woke up with a huge headache.
Loneliness is so painful now and it's hard to imagine that I can change it. It's so heavy, my heart phisically hurts.
I think I understand why is there a huge increase of suicides in January.

 

[daruino]

My mom broke her shoulder in the morning, so it was quite hectic :') Didn't end up doing much in the evening, but enjoyed some food i guess.

 

[kouna]

Took 2 pills (quietapine) and slept early, woke up around 11:00 and then had lunch with my parents.

 

[DesertLand]

spent the night with my ex gf who broke up with me for christmas
i hate my life, i'm more and more alone and no one love me
i hope it's my last year alive