How to successfully hang myself with a door knob?

[Everythingiwanted]

I will start by explaining a bit of my situation :

Hello everyone, and thanks to anyone who will reply.
I am a 19 year old female and i have come to the decision of taking my life anytime soon.
I have attempted suicide twice so far. The first time it was by hanging (age 12) and i obviously failed because i had no idea on how to properly do it. The second time was by drug (as in medication) overdose (also age 12). That obviously also failed. I had no idea of what drugs to use, i popped every pill in the house i could get my hands on and hoped to die.
My biggest fear, is failing at hanging myself and end up with brain damage or paralyzed. My second concearn is that i currently live with my fiance and i dont want him to find me. I know he'd be better off without me but nobody wants to see a dead body. I have tried today with a rope to see if it would work but im really REALLY scared of failing at this.

 

[Pan]

If you are serious about it only full suspension will do; there is no right or wrong way. The law of gravity applies, as in down. Why would you even consider this when you are on verge of being married?i ask only because you mention your fiancé. I am not trying to be rough on you, but it makes no sense to me. Are you sure this is the guy for you?