this is definitely something that I'm wrestling with. I am particularly concerned about my 10 year old daughter. I've been counseled on the very serious psychological harm children of a suicidal parent suffer. I love my daughter more than anything in the world so I very much want to protect her. I've only recently come to seriously contemplate taking my life, so things are still quite vague for me But here's where my thoughts are now: No matter how I die, my daughter will suffer grief over the loss of her father, who, despite my many faults and failings still seems to love me. It occurs to me, though, that there might be less for her to deal with if it appears that I died from an accident. I'm thinking about finding a way to die during a scuba dive. She knows that I enjoy diving so I'm thinking that perhaps my death during a dive might be somewhat less traumatic for her than were she to know I intentionally left her. She will still have to grieve my death, but won't have the extra baggage of dealing with my suicide. The real downside of this is that I can't write her a note in which I tell her about how much i loved her, how much joy she brought me and how sorry I am that the pain I suffer proved more than I could handle. These are the challenges before me. I hope you find a solution.
