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SpaxeZ

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Feb 28, 2021
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Hello everyone. I had a shit life. Lost mom when I was 4. Crazy dad fighting and shouting all the time. Living with strict narcissistic grandparents inside a crazy hellish islamic hell hole. I got non curable sexual dysfunctiom when I was 18 and was held in my room for 3 years by my family to study for entrance exam and get into med school and now in my mid 20s I ended up in a refugee camp. I didn't deserve any of this. I simply don't want to continue living this life. My all time favorite method has always been drowning and please don't tell me it's not a peaceful way to go. I don't have access to any other method and this is the way I wanna go. I just need a boat. That's it. But here's the thing. I'm inside a refugee camp with no ID and it's hard to get around the country as I won't be able to rent hotels without ID. My plan so far has been buying one of those cheap inflatable rowing boats but Idk if I can sail those in the ocean. If I want to spend around 1k I might be able to get those with motor but then again those would be harder to move around. I wish there was a way I could rent a boat without the need of showing my ID and sail deep into the ocean.
 
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FireWalkWithMe

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I'm struggling to understand why you require a boat in all honesty, it doesn't seem like a prerequisite. Is it the romanticism of sailing a boat off into the sunset and then doing it? Fair enough if so. Really sorry to hear about your situation.
 
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SpaxeZ

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Feb 28, 2021
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I'm struggling to understand why you require a boat in all honesty, it doesn't seem like a prerequisite. Is it the romanticism of sailing a boat off into the sunset and then doing it? Fair enough if so. Really sorry to hear about your situation.
Not your fault. Because I need to get to the middle of that body of water and I can't do so by swimming specially when the water is freezing cold. I need to do it in a way that my body won't ever be found
 
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Aug 12, 2019
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To me it looks like these inexpensive Intex inflatable boats can go out to sea by this video

 
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Hello everyone. I had a shit life. Lost mom when I was 4. Crazy dad fighting and shouting all the time. Living with strict narcissistic grandparents inside a crazy hellish islamic hell hole. I got non curable sexual dysfunctiom when I was 18 and was held in my room for 3 years by my family to study for entrance exam and get into med school and now in my mid 20s I ended up in a refugee camp. I didn't deserve any of this. I simply don't want to continue living this life. My all time favorite method has always been drowning and please don't tell me it's not a peaceful way to go. I don't have access to any other method and this is the way I wanna go. I just need a boat. That's it. But here's the thing. I'm inside a refugee camp with no ID and it's hard to get around the country as I won't be able to rent hotels without ID. My plan so far has been buying one of those cheap inflatable rowing boats but Idk if I can sail those in the ocean. If I want to spend around 1k I might be able to get those with motor but then again those would be harder to move around. I wish there was a way I could rent a boat without the need of showing my ID and sail deep into the ocean.
I'd probably suggest looking into inflatable boats. They are easy to transport and carry and they are cheap, you can get them easily.
 
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