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Circles

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I'm not in recovery so I'm sorry if this is the wrong place to ask this. I thought that people in recovery who were able to distance themselves from this place could offer any advice maybe? I'm sure it's different for everyone but I feel like I'm getting addicted, attached to people and just too involved again before I got eye problems 11 months ago. Only because of my eye issues I wasn't able to look at any screens whatsoever and if at all only for a short time. But the reason I'm bringing this up is that I spent almost 8-9 months without coming here or hardly looking at a screen and I kinda wish I could get back to that. In a fucked up way I kinda wish my eyes would fuck up again. I was even writing in diaries and reading books more and even though it was boring as fuck at times atleast I wasn't feeling this indescribable sadness I feel sometimes only when I come here like I am now. I'm kinda confused about what I want honestly besides that so idk maybe this is just me pointlessly ranting.
 
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I stopped coming here for a few months, probably because I was in an intensive outpatient program with daily group therapy. Now that my program has ended, I'm back here again every day. When I have social support, I don't feel the need to frequent this website.
 
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Circles

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I stopped coming here for a few months, probably because I was in an intensive outpatient program with daily group therapy. Now that my program has ended, I'm back here again every day. When I have social support, I don't feel the need to frequent this website.
Thanks for telling me what helped for you. It sucks that there aren't many social support groups in real life. I think I would like to replace coming here with something like that but I doubt I'd go or even if I would like it or not. I just wish I didn't have an internet addiction cause it's so hard to replace something like it most especially when you're lonely and bored.
 
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Thanks for telling me what helped for you. It sucks that there aren't many social support groups in real life. I think I would like to replace coming here with something like that but I doubt I'd go or even if I would like it or not. I just wish I didn't have an internet addiction cause it's so hard to replace something like it most especially when you're lonely and bored.
Well this site helped me tremendously, I was on the other section, now for a year plus I'm here in the recovery. Hope you feel better somehow. You will find lots of support here that's for sure.
 
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LeechBlock NG, FocusMe, Cold Turkey Blocker.

I've used all of these to block the site when i used it too much in the past. I also blocked it on my iphone .
 
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Brokensaddle

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I'm not in recovery so I'm sorry if this is the wrong place to ask this. I thought that people in recovery who were able to distance themselves from this place could offer any advice maybe? I'm sure it's different for everyone but I feel like I'm getting addicted, attached to people and just too involved again before I got eye problems 11 months ago. Only because of my eye issues I wasn't able to look at any screens whatsoever and if at all only for a short time. But the reason I'm bringing this up is that I spent almost 8-9 months without coming here or hardly looking at a screen and I kinda wish I could get back to that. In a fucked up way I kinda wish my eyes would fuck up again. I was even writing in diaries and reading books more and even though it was boring as fuck at times atleast I wasn't feeling this indescribable sadness I feel sometimes only when I come here like I am now. I'm kinda confused about what I want honestly besides that so idk maybe this is just me pointlessly ranting.
I stopped being active much when I first started my job but it's gone downhill in the last couple of months. I'm getting a new job in the new year and that's what kinda keeping me going. Hopefully it leads to better future and I get to meet new people and do new things. I can think managing your expectations is good for self regulation. I have both good and bad days and at the moment I'm focused on try stay strong and pushing to enjoy my days when I'm having a good and hopefully letting the momentum grow. Also being kind and forgiving myself and letting go of my anger is important when I have bad days
 
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$nowLeopard

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Log out, when you instinctively open the webpage just back out. Worked for me with a different forum
 
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Circles

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Log out, when you instinctively open the webpage just back out. Worked for me with a different forum
Yea I'm thinking of doing that but also changing my password to something I can't remember. But the real issue is me still coming here even after that. I've tried to put a website time limits from my phone but for some reason it's not working. I feel like I need to quit it cold turkey somehow or whatever the saying is. Plus I need something to replace it somehow with another forum or website especially one with a dark mode and I sure don't won't to go back to Reddit.
 
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Oct 30, 2021
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Yea I'm thinking of doing that but also changing my password to something I can't remember. But the real issue is me still coming here even after that. I've tried to put a website time limits from my phone but for some reason it's not working. I feel like I need to quit it cold turkey somehow or whatever the saying is. Plus I need something to replace it somehow with another forum or website especially one with a dark mode and I sure don't won't to go back to Reddit.
Well the point is to not lurk aswell.

I know you may be deep into learned helplessness possibly but please just try it, it's not hard! I promise

Find a different way to spend your time. And don't be afraid off boredom. Boredom gives rise to ideas.
 
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Circles

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Well the point is to not lurk aswell.

I know you may be deep into learned helplessness possibly but please just try it, it's not hard! I promise

Find a different way to spend your time. And don't be afraid off boredom. Boredom gives rise to ideas.
For once I can agree with you. Thanks.
Take care if you can.
 
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whywere

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Jun 26, 2020
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Well this site helped me tremendously, I was on the other section, now for a year plus I'm here in the recovery. Hope you feel better somehow. You will find lots of support here that's for sure.
You are awesome!!!

Walter
 
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Just gotta find something else to put your attention to. Keep yourself more busy with something else so that you don't go here or just block this site. If you have friends here then you can exchange info and text somewhere else
 
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I think it will be best to quit cold turkey. I have been addicted to reading forums for hours on end but once I found something else to focus my attention, I stopped pretty much cold turkey. I think finding something else to do is key.
 
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I think it will be best to quit cold turkey. I have been addicted to reading forums for hours on end but once I found something else to focus my attention, I stopped pretty much cold turkey. I think finding something else to do is key.
I'm surprised you even posted this. I guess I was becoming a bit annoying to y'all. Don't you worry though I'll try my hardest to quit coming here now.
 
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I'm surprised you even posted this. I guess I was becoming a bit annoying to y'all. Don't you worry though I'll try my hardest to quit coming here now.

Oh no lol don't take it like that, you've actually been extremely helpful to the community and other members in general. I just wanted to offer my advice on how I was able to break my addiction.
 
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h0wd1rtygrlzST4YCL3N

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i've been here on and off a few years. I was even a lurker for a long time. i have it hidden, but i feel like when the wrong people find out you have these types of thoughts, they want to tell you what they mean or think its something that its not. my ex would scream kill yourself drug whore a lot......i have also had other ex's snoop through my journals and make assumptions. i like it here because you can be open, with out people making assumptions about these types of thoughts. i feel like i'm only still alive now because i have a few end of life situations to take care of that would not of mattered had i gotten this over with underage. i was also on ash as a teen.....so i feel like these types of bubbles on the internet are more helpful than harmful.
 
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Sherri

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You are truly a vibrant and kind soul! You make SS shine with your presence.

You are truly a great friend.

Walter
Awww Walter you are too kind. I'm speechless, a big hug to you.
 
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I dunno. How do you make a pigeon stop coming back for seed when it's had some? you're only human. People go to friendly places where they're rewarded by things.

 
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I'm not in recovery so I'm sorry if this is the wrong place to ask this. I thought that people in recovery who were able to distance themselves from this place could offer any advice maybe? I'm sure it's different for everyone but I feel like I'm getting addicted, attached to people and just too involved again before I got eye problems 11 months ago. Only because of my eye issues I wasn't able to look at any screens whatsoever and if at all only for a short time. But the reason I'm bringing this up is that I spent almost 8-9 months without coming here or hardly looking at a screen and I kinda wish I could get back to that. In a fucked up way I kinda wish my eyes would fuck up again. I was even writing in diaries and reading books more and even though it was boring as fuck at times atleast I wasn't feeling this indescribable sadness I feel sometimes only when I come here like I am now. I'm kinda confused about what I want honestly besides that so idk maybe this is just me pointlessly ranting.
I am happy I came here. I keep coming back because I am able to vent and unable to socialize and interact with others (outside of a professional environment) with any level of comfort anymore. I wasted my "image" blabbering about suicide and abuse to "friends" and "family" and came out homeless. Really. Really devastated. Complaining about sex abuse and men and bla bla bla - "nobody likes women who are complainers". I lost jobs, I lost housing, I was targeted. I decided that suicidal ideation is normal when you're bullied and cornered and can't leave a situation or pervasive thoughts and have found comfort. I even found some helpful links for self-help books and it's nice to see a mirror (in some respects) and not feel like such an alien.

I feel rewarded and found compassion and people who DO get better (I've gone up and down, too). I've been suicidal for 16.25 years since a traumatic event and couldn't help it. It forever changed me.

It's keeping me up, not down. I'm not listening to methods on "how to die". I had to watch someone half-through an effort and felt so DISGUSTED and depressed looking at another person in pain. I have emotions and some just don't.

It depends on what you're here for.

I'd NEVER want to watch anyone kill themselves and can't describe how gruesome it looks from my home computer.

It's nice to tell someone "don't do that - I love you from here!" and sometimes that's good enough.

Maybe read the uplifting stories and see that some DO recover.

Not all suicidal people are that way temporarily. For some, it takes a lifetime to escape what got you there, anyway.
-R
 
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sartre_camus_love

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Dec 9, 2021
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I'm not in recovery so I'm sorry if this is the wrong place to ask this. I thought that people in recovery who were able to distance themselves from this place could offer any advice maybe? I'm sure it's different for everyone but I feel like I'm getting addicted, attached to people and just too involved again before I got eye problems 11 months ago. Only because of my eye issues I wasn't able to look at any screens whatsoever and if at all only for a short time. But the reason I'm bringing this up is that I spent almost 8-9 months without coming here or hardly looking at a screen and I kinda wish I could get back to that. In a fucked up way I kinda wish my eyes would fuck up again. I was even writing in diaries and reading books more and even though it was boring as fuck at times atleast I wasn't feeling this indescribable sadness I feel sometimes only when I come here like I am now. I'm kinda confused about what I want honestly besides that so idk maybe this is just me pointlessly ranting.
Could you make a promise to yourself to try and do some of those other things like write in a diary or read (even if for 5 minutes) before coming here? I find when I have an urge to do something and I have a "buy in" of something that serves me better I tend to get caught up in the thing I'm doing. Idk if that makes sense or not.
 
avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
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I'm surprised you even posted this. I guess I was becoming a bit annoying to y'all. Don't you worry though I'll try my hardest to quit coming here now.
He's right. I have stayed away from here for months on end by occupying my time with something else. Sure it became a compulsive obsession, I am definitely prone to that type of behavior, but it caused me to put the site out of reach of my immediate conscious attention. I suggest collecting something you enjoy that either takes up a good deal of time or has massive numbers of items within. That will keep you occupied with pretty much a good chunk of your free time. No matter what you choose to do, I wish you success and clarity. Take care of you bro. Only person who ultimately can or will.
 

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