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toolateforme
Student
- Jul 2, 2018
- 158
I was supposed to CTB today. I had my plan for the longest and I finally had intent. I took them all out, counted them to make sure I had everything I needed, grabbed two bottles of water. Then when it actually came to the moment - I just fucking stared at the pills. Couldn't bring myself to open the bottle. Like my mind just shorted out or something. I'm so fucking angry at myself, and embarrassed, too. I really underestimated SI. I thought acceptance alone was enough.
How do I overcome this? I plan to get drunk tonight but I'm scared that won't be enough.
How do I overcome this? I plan to get drunk tonight but I'm scared that won't be enough.