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nothingbutyou

nothingbutyou

red nordic
Apr 28, 2025
11
i don't have a life, I want to commit suicide, but the pain I must pay for eternal rest in nothingness overwhelms me seconds before carrying it out. For those who previously committed suicide and those currently contemplating it, what was their motivation, and how were they able to do it without fear, whether of the act of suicide itself or what comes after death
 
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Rynalia

Rynalia

無知の知
Apr 22, 2025
70
Either the pain of existing exceeds your SI, or you chip away at your SI enough to CTB.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Arcanist
Apr 21, 2025
452
I cant really go into that, but yes I had finesse. My death had meaning is the jist of it. It was the final piece I needed to pull the trigger. SI is strong with me, so I use intellect to question instinct. The truth is instinct is stronger then intellect. At the end of the day we really are just animals. Thats the angle I work on today. Ive seen many dead animals on the road. Whats one more?
 
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bananaolympus

Experienced
Dec 12, 2024
286
Many here talk about si but in my case when i decided to kill myself there was no si, my brain had an objective to kill myself so i had no fear or doubt on the road to the site and when i jumped i even felt relief, maybe my si is weaker like people who do daredevil things
 
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Mooncry

Mooncry

꥟♡⏾
Sep 11, 2024
141
Many here talk about si but in my case when i decided to kill myself there was no si, my brain had an objective to kill myself so i had no fear or doubt on the road to the site and when i jumped i even felt relief, maybe my si is weaker like people who do daredevil things
You're so lucky… I wish I could feel like that. I want to be sure of myself and have the conviction to do it so bad. My misery is self-imposed and I know it…
 
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Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

Enlightened
Aug 28, 2021
1,001
Those who comitted suicide know the answer to your question but they cannot answer. I guess the psychological research in the realm of suicide prevention has a lot of data that would answer the question about the midset prior to successful suicide.
 
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butimstillsoblue

butimstillsoblue

Member
Dec 27, 2024
48
Lately I've realised that when I'm ready, I won't be fearful.
With my plan in place, the more time passes, the less SI I have.
 
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Daenerys Targaryen

Daenerys Targaryen

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
263
When the pain and suffering we endure overcomes fear.
 
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DoomCry

Member
Mar 5, 2025
77
I think I will have to be determined and despite the fear do what I have to do. Fear is part of life.
Our terror of death should not be anesthetized. I believe it should be welcomed.
 
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pointlessliving

Member
Apr 8, 2025
19
We all have to die 'some' day, I might as well save myself the misery and suffering that is occurring/is yet to occur prior to living for a few decades more. So technically, by ctb through my chosen time and method, I am saving myself from more suffering which eventually would end in death anyway
 
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Enigma25

Enigma25

The No Mad Nomad
Mar 19, 2025
29
i don't have a life, I want to commit suicide, but the pain I must pay for eternal rest in nothingness overwhelms me seconds before carrying it out. For those who previously committed suicide and those currently contemplating it, what was their motivation, and how were they able to do it without fear, whether of the act of suicide itself or what comes after death
Fear of death is completely normal. We are all human, I understand what its like to not fear SI, but I also don't wish that type of apathy on even my worst enemy. I really hope you push forward instead of fighting the fear. I am a firm believer SI should be ones last resort.
 
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aalmoa001

aalmoa001

One toe in the grave
Apr 14, 2025
11
I think fear is normal, but maybe stop and think about whether you do infact want to ctb - as in not telling you not to do it just make sure it's what you really want
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
570
We all have to die 'some' day, I might as well save myself the misery and suffering that is occurring/is yet to occur prior to living for a few decades more. So technically, by ctb through my chosen time and method, I am saving myself from more suffering which eventually would end in death anyway
This is my exact thought process.
 

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