How to Not Be Afraid

[lizzywizzy09]

To those whose circumstances mean recovery isn't an option, how do you go day to day in the meantime without being in utter terror and despair?

If I stay, I will suffer tremendously for the rest of my life. That is as certain as the sun coming up. Realistically, ctb is the most logical solution but I'm still human and have the same instincts as anyone else. I also need to get through the day in the meantime but am filled with existential terror every time I wake up to a new day. How do you relax knowing you're stuck between two horrible options?

 

[VoidedExistence]

It doesn't work much but I disassociate myself with reality. I don't really feel like I am living in the real world. I just live inside my mind with my mind made horrors. But every now then, I have to face reality and that's when the real horror kicks and I am petrified. I am sorry, this was not much of use.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

SI is a bitch. Very hard to override.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I've lost everything and am now just waiting to overcome my SI. I am very close. I'm just managing to get through each day at a time by going to the gym and taking lots of anxiety meds and sleeping tablets to calm the fear and anxiety. I do not know what else to do.

 

[Mlifos & Sitoa]

If I had a gun, I think I'd overcome my instincts. Because it's just a second, maybe shorter. I just need to feel extremely depressed like sometimes I do, and it's easy when everything is depressing actually. But if we're talking about the other methods, I'm really afraid to do them. Because I'm tired of this endless pain. I don't wanna feel any pain when I'm gonna die at least.