How to make it look like an accident

[skylarwhiteyo104781]

Every time I step in the street, walk at night, I hope that the "worst possible case" will happen, quickly, and let me CTB.

I'm not seeking to end my life for the next few weeks but I would be fine if something just happened to me you know. Honestly would prefer it.

It gets me thinking about how the pain for those lost in different methods get treated differently. I myself know I would much rather overdose and make it seem like an accident than something obviously self inflicted. Anyone know of any other methods that can seem like an accident?

 

[scarecrowbubu]

I feel you. But I think looking for an "accident" way to ctb would mean a painful way to do it. Are you afraid of hurting people close to you?

 

[jruo]

While I'm not very researched I was reading the updated peaceful pill and they mention along side SN that sodium azide has a more undetectable way but it's never explained why and its just as if not more difficult to purchase, and is not as documented on this website as a method. Accidental drowning or falling, but that's very far from being 100% painless.

Just some personal thoughts on the matter. I hope you find comfort soon.

 

[glitterypearls]

all of the "accidents" are so painful, but I understand where you are coming from your memory for your loved ones will be full of empathy and nice words about you but if it looked like you CTB on purpose it will be the opposite of nice words. I always see on tiktok videos of moms using their son or daughter CTB as a sympathy card and all of the comments are "if only they talked to someone" or "they should have asked for help instead of taking the easy way out and hurting you" they wouldn't say that if it was from a car accident or accidentally drowning.

 

[Unwr!tten]

Most accidents don't have high success rates I think :(

 

[warriorofeld]

Well my roommate made me drinksome alcohol last Saturday and I haven't drank since my situation started in march. omw to my room in the basement I lost balance going down the steps and fell into maybe (10 ft? of air) busted my head on the concrete. I wished I had broke my neck and I didn't even plan on doing it

 

[hellispink]

You can't lie to a forensic pathologist. Your body/corpse will them the truth. They can see everything. Even the minimum things, they just will know. No way to escape them not knowing. One has to accept that they will find out.

 

[Kali Yuga]

I've thought about this many a time...

Pros:
makes grief less complex for loved ones.
more "honorable" memory. especially for religious types.
possible insurance

cons:
less control over method.
less likely to be peaceful.
higher chance of failure and permanent damage or vegetative state.

An overdose might look "accidental" but its probably only a tier above suicide in terms of the pros and cons i listed. The person was obviously suffering in life. it also can be hard to OD. I've know fentanyl is pretty strong but I cant get it here. And then i'd have to first take on the identity of an addict, slowly transitioning to be known as an addict before i eventually OD. This would be just as painful for loved ones to watch the demise to addiction... unless your already battling addiction. but for me it would be an obvious one off use for suicide. not that i am above addiction, if i had access to anything to bring peace I would use it.

Another contender for me was a car accident... I'd have to remove the air bag to up my chances. A lifetime of pain from surviving would be torture. So instead I'd use a motorbike but theres still that chance of survival. Plus, riding fast in to a wall or tree would be terrifying for me when it came to it. A lot of gore too. im too anxious and concerned with peace to follow through with it.

Then I thought about going "missing" on a boat out at sea while taking something with me to die peacefully and hopefully just drift off in to the ocean never to be found. but this would require me to learn some basic boating, and i may just drift back to shore dead with obvious suicide. or waste resources with a search party or worry others that I suffered being stranded at sea or drowned.

I've tried to think of it all, going missing after "travelling" overseas - too much public attention and worry to others.
snake bite on hike - too slow and would be hard to find a wild snake and time everything.
smoking drinking standing in sun till i get cancer - too slow and painful.
native american/ buddhist style mindfully leaving the body and willing themself to a peaceful death... but I get the sense this takes great discipline and masterful mind body meditation practices... I'm sure if I had that much discipline over my mind and body, I could live a peaceful life with no desire to peace out..

why do u want to make it look accidental btw?