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XBunnyBoyx

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How can I make it very clear to as many people as possible that my reasoning for doing what I'm going to do is heavily influenced by me being physically and mentally abused as a child, then after my abuser passed away, my family hated me for daring to have resentment towards her abuse? I don't want to be written out as "oh he was just mentally unwell, I wish he knew how loved he was". When nobody ever wanted anything to do with me on holidays or through college.

I feel like it's not going to be fair for my family to use me as sympathy and social media clout when they not only weren't there for me but actively played one of the biggest roles in why I ultimately want to CTB.
 
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gothbird

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One of the most painful things about this process is knowing that after you're gone, people will twist your story to make themselves feel better—or worse, to make themselves look better. They'll say you were just "mentally unwell." They'll post photos they haven't looked at in years and write captions about love they never showed. They'll erase the truth so they don't have to face it.

If you want to stop that from happening, you can document everything now, and do it clearly.

Here are a few options:
  1. Write a letter or statement. Detail your reasons. Name names if you need to.
  2. Record a video or audio message. If you're afraid they'll misinterpret your writing, speak it.
  3. Use scheduled emails or cloud storage. Services like gmail allow scheduled sending. Or you can store files in Google Drive, Dropbox, or a private blog and set it to release after a certain time or through someone you trust.
  4. State clearly what you don't want. "I do not want a funeral. I do not want posts about how loved I was. I do not want the people who hurt me to speak on my behalf."
  5. Include facts. Medical records, police reports, dated messages, diary entries.
Whatever you choose, make it yours.

Here is a really good resource for writing notes.
 
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