I'm very paranoid so i run from everyone that i think will ever hurt me in the future. I'm also living in that future every single day, in my mind, can't control it. So betrayal is something i should accept, no matter i want it or not. Mustakes were made, so i had this one rule - hurt them back, but stronger. It's not emotional, it's just a form of comunication, telling others to be aware of. Every single time i blame it on myslef and my judgment about people. Ya some times, even if someone wants to hurt me, they just can't cause it's not so easy, but anyway i do hurt them, before they try. Again my form of communication with the so called sociaty. Most of the times the punishment is to stop doing business with them, no explain, so it's a big deal considering the money they lose, and i make selling them, before they do that to me or afterwards, after they tried.
When it comes to those who are supposed to hurt me, and they are clear about that, i'm fine, there is just another rule - you can try to fuck with me, but don't touch my family. That's the line nobody mortal should cross for sure.
But I'm not violent at all, haha