Resource How to hang yourself

[SparklePony]

I'm just surprised how many people want to do this using a door handle or wardrobe. There is nothing in my apartment which I would trust to support the process - and at least I want to get the equipment right before trying for real.
I thought jumping was my preferred method, but I have had to conclude that my fear of heights just won't let me do it (several frustrated days at the cliffs under my belt!). So I have a good strong tree climbing rope and I plan to use a Blake's hitch for the noose and a taut line hitch to secure the rope (both with stopper knots) a bit of foam packaging between the rope and my neck. I am going to try woodland at dusk with a drink with a sleeping tablet to ease my way (I take sedatives often - they don't make me pass out, just dull the senses and reactions). Found my carotid artery no problem so know where to position the rope and I'm thinking partial suspension from standing/leaning like the girl in NoPillPhilosophy's choke game video link.
Problem is, like for so many of us, the theory is easy, but I have no idea if I will bottle it...

 

[Responsibleresident]

How in densely populated setting without privacy?

Having a mental disability is a daily struggle. But having undercover police and their secret fraternities stalking and abusing us is terrifying and exhausting.
These bigot pervert thugs are cruel criminals hiding behind police secrecy.

I dont see any safety in my future. It make me consider suicide.

 

[Wish to die]

I need some help. I've been trying to pass out but I just cant. I've tried everything. Someone said jog on the spot and then press your neck arteries, I just lose vision for 2seconds and everything is back to normal. I'm starting to feel like I dont have coratid arteries.
Also I just tried partial from my door, could not pass out, tried like 10 times. Now I'm suffering from a headache.
Someone please help me pass out, tell me what I'm doing wrong.

 

[saddyke]

I think I'm ready. I've been viewing this thread for a long time. I'll finally be at peace. I'm going to try tonight or tomorrow night, most likely tonight. Wish me luck.

 

[Wish to die]

I think I'm ready. I've been viewing this thread for a long time. I'll finally be at peace. I'm going to try tonight or tomorrow night, most likely tonight. Wish me luck.

Hi, good luck!
How you plan on doing it?
Did you find your carotids?
Sorry for the questions
Hope you find peace

 

[saddyke]

Hi, good luck!
How you plan on doing it?
Did you find your carotids?
Sorry for the questions
Hope you find peace

Thank you <3
I plan on doing it by waiting until my entire family is asleep, then heading to my basement. I'm going to be doing it on a door, where the rope is attached to the other side of the door and the slipknot noose is on the other side. I just hope this works.
Sadly last night I fell asleep before everyone else did, but I'm determined to try today. I really hope it works. I just want it to end. I hope I find peace as well.

 

[Tripz7]

Been viewing this thread for awhile. Attempted several times now with no avail. Im using the 2nd example now from my door. Having trouble passing out though. I switched from a military belt to a neck tie with a slipknot. Still no passing out. I just made a slipknot on a strong dog leash. Im hoping since its thinner itll work. If that doesnt work i need a rope and a pull up bar because i think its the door or height. Not the rope.
Im also trying again tonight when everyone's asleep.
Good luck Saddyke.

 

[LastRide]

are you using leather belt?

Leather belt is not a good idea - not soft enough, will not close your carotid arteries but will put heavy pressure on your windpipe. I tried it, failed, never again !

Thank you <3
I plan on doing it by waiting until my entire family is asleep, then heading to my basement. I'm going to be doing it on a door, where the rope is attached to the other side of the door and the slipknot noose is on the other side. I just hope this works.
Sadly last night I fell asleep before everyone else did, but I'm determined to try today. I really hope it works. I just want it to end. I hope I find peace as well.

Please, hanging requires a lot of technique (like any other ctb actually). Don't do it unless you have read through every info here on SS, it is very useful. Please don't do anything in a hurry, do your research first ! And then once you've done the reasearch, I wish you success and eternal peace !

 

[Tripz7]

Leather belt is not a good idea - not soft enough, will not close your carotid arteries but will put heavy pressure on your windpipe. I tried it, failed, never again !

No it wasnt a leather belt. Fabric style military belt but yeah think its too thick was crushing my windpipe. The dogleash im going to use is alot thinner and thinner than the the necktie. I feel like its going to work.

 

[LastRide]

No it wasnt a leather belt. Fabric style military belt but yeah think its too thick was crushing my windpipe. The dogleash im going to use is alot thinner and thinner than the the necktie. I feel like its going to work.

You need something soft and flexible...are you sure you want to do this? I survived partial hanging with a belt, let me know if you want to talk, you can pm me if you feel more comfortable that way....

 

[Tripz7]

You need something soft and flexible...are you sure you want to do this? I survived partial hanging with a belt, let me know if you want to talk, you can pm me if you feel more comfortable that way....

Couldn't figure out how to pm.
Yeah i do, if i can get it right. I suffer from bi polar depression, manic anxiety and ptsd. I have alot of neurological disorders the Drs can't figure out. Neuropathy, numbness in alot of my body. Mostly my head neck and limbs.
Ive wondered if that has something to do with me not being able to pass out. Im not sure.

 

[LastRide]

Couldn't figure out how to pm.
Yeah i do, if i can get it right. I suffer from bi polar depression, manic anxiety and ptsd. I have alot of neurological disorders the Drs can't figure out. Neuropathy, numbness in alot of my body. Mostly my head neck and limbs.
Ive wondered if that has something to do with me not being able to pass out. Im not sure.

I don't think there is a relation to your psych state...but maybe your psych state prevents you from going all the way? I can tell you're suffering a lot....but maybe this prevents you from looking at ctb with a clear mind and get your method worked out? Please excuse me if you don't see things this way, just trying to find a good grounding for you....

 

[saddyke]

Please, hanging requires a lot of technique (like any other ctb actually). Don't do it unless you have read through every info here on SS, it is very useful. Please don't do anything in a hurry, do your research first ! And then once you've done the reasearch, I wish you success and eternal peace !

Thank you, I've done research for a while now and I feel ready. This whole day I've felt empty. Numb. Ready. I'm ready to leave. I don't want to cause anyone pain anymore. I hate that someone will find me, most likely my parents. I'm really hoping that it'll work. I'm going to lock the door, have a noose with a wet wash cloth, and hopefully hang correctly. I just want to be at peace.

 

[LastRide]

Thank you, I've done research for a while now and I feel ready. This whole day I've felt empty. Numb. Ready. I'm ready to leave. I don't want to cause anyone pain anymore. I hate that someone will find me, most likely my parents. I'm really hoping that it'll work. I'm going to lock the door, have a noose with a wet wash cloth, and hopefully hang correctly. I just want to be at peace.

Ok, if you feel sure about this...any questions, ask me ! I had an unsuccessful partial hanging attempt 20 years ago...so I know how you feel before doing it ! Just to put your mind at rest, once you get past the SI the method is actually quite enjoyable. Just make sure you have a devcent anchor point ! Mine was too weak so when I lost consciousness and my body automatically started thrashing around it took the door of the hinges....I wish you a happy and comfortable journey if you decide to go ahead ! Oh, and by the way...enjoy the orgasm right at the end....feels great ! Best way to go if you can go til the end !

 

[Tripz7]

I don't think there is a relation to your psych state...but maybe your psych state prevents you from going all the way? I can tell you're suffering a lot....but maybe this prevents you from looking at ctb with a clear mind and get your method worked out? Please excuse me if you don't see things this way, just trying to find a good grounding for you....

I hear ya. Its possible, my mental state keeps me from doing alot of things right. My minds never clear. My anxiety puts me on the floor most the day. Especially in the mornings. I just want peace. Im gonna try and get a better noose for starters.
Also again good luck tonight Saddyke. Does the wet wash cloth help with comfort?

 

[saddyke]

this is a little goodbye.
I'm thankful for everyone who has been in my life. however, like I've said lots of times, I want to be at peace. if you don't hear from me again, that means I was successful. I'm sorry if I let anyone down. goodbye <3

 

[LastRide]

this is a little goodbye.
I'm thankful for everyone who has been in my life. however, like I've said lots of times, I want to be at peace. if you don't hear from me again, that means I was successful. I'm sorry if I let anyone down. goodbye <3

You did not let anyone down ! If you feel this is the right move for you NOBODY should condemn you ! Have a safe journey....I am with you in my thoughts during this !

 

[saddyke]

I feel awful. I had the noose around my neck, the washcloth, the rope ready. Everyone was asleep and it was perfect. But I didn't do it. I fucking hate myself for not doing it. My body wouldn't let me. I feel like a failure. I said goodbye and shit but it wasn't. I feel fake. Disgusting. I wish I would've. I should've taken the opportunity. Maybe another day, when I'm really ready. I'm sorry.

 

[R_N]

Ctb is not easy thing to do, as you have realised so don't worry about it too much. When your time comes nothing will stop you.

 

[Tripz7]

I tried again today. Im having trouble. I had an hour of adjusting and re adjusting. My neck is sore. I just wont pass out. Ill hear ringing in my ears and start seeing stars but it goes on for literally minutes with no passing out. Im really upset now because i don't have any other method atm. Starting to give up on this. Another miserable day for me on this planet. Im starting to feel like im going to be stuck here.

 

[Tripz7]

So.. Again i tried today. I had an about an hour and half. This time I used a thick scarf and tied it to the top railing of a metal shower door in my bathroom. I used example 2 then 3. No passing out. I got aggravated. Re adjusted to position 4. After about 3-4 mins i felt alot pressure on the right side of my neck that hurt like hell made my body jump 2-3 times not sure if they were convulsions but i never passed out and had to stop.
Im really upset this method isn't working for me. I see so much positive feedback on here but... Its not working for me... Which sucks i been very determined to ctb.

 

[SamuelMortem]

Thank you!

 

[gardi]

So.. Again i tried today. I had an about an hour and half. This time I used a thick scarf and tied it to the top railing of a metal shower door in my bathroom. I used example 2 then 3. No passing out. I got aggravated. Re adjusted to position 4. After about 3-4 mins i felt alot pressure on the right side of my neck that hurt like hell made my body jump 2-3 times not sure if they were convulsions but i never passed out and had to stop.
Im really upset this method isn't working for me. I see so much positive feedback on here but... Its not working for me... Which sucks i been very determined to ctb.

Which way is next? I ask because it seems that partial does not work for me either.

 

[Tripz7]

Which way is next? I ask because it seems that partial does not work for me either.

Its ashame because i honestly dont know. Im at a loss. I tried overdosing on sleeping pills (120) couple months back but that just landed me a baker act and feeling like shit for a week. I dont know atm.
Im ruling out full suspension too because i doubt ill pass out and just really suffer before hand. Im really lost right now.

 

[Tripz7]

Had a breakthrough today. Partial suspension will work for me. After alot of adjusting over the passed week i figured out what i been doing wrong. Ive had the noose a little too high on my neck. Today after setting up with example 2 a leaning foward with the noose right below my adams apple i started to pass out immediately. I did this 2-3 times got really close to knocking out and stopped. Felt very peaceful. Today was another practice test. Tomorrow or tonight might be the real go. Its a little different now knowing i have the power in my hand. I need to get my goodbyes out without being too obvious.

 

[Kornyboyo]

Had a breakthrough today. Partial suspension will work for me. After alot of adjusting over the passed week i figured out what i been doing wrong. Ive had the noose a little too high on my neck. Today after setting up with example 2 a leaning foward with the noose right below my adams apple i started to pass out immediately. I did this 2-3 times got really close to knocking out and stopped. Felt very peaceful. Today was another practice test. Tomorrow or tonight might be the real go. Its a little different now knowing i have the power in my hand. I need to get my goodbyes out without being too obvious.

What rope did you use? Slipknot. What was it tied to ?

 

[Tripz7]

What rope did you use? Slipknot. What was it tied to ?

Using a long scarf with a slipknot. Hanging from the back of my door.

 

[FreeBIRD]

So lucky you found the sweet spot I can't wait to find mine

 

[Kornyboyo]

I just practiced partial for the first time. Wrapped the rope around a pole above me. Tied a slipknot and placed below Adams apple. Leaned forward and within a few seconds start to feel loosing consciousness. Is this a good sign this method will work for me?

 

[Tripz7]

I just practiced partial for the first time. Wrapped the rope around a pole above me. Tied a slipknot and placed below Adams apple. Leaned forward and within a few seconds start to feel loosing consciousness. Is this a good sign this method will work for me?

Yeah its a good sign. Taking a deep breath and count back from 10. Thats what I do.