How to cope with the psychological burden that comes in preparation of taking SN?

[lnlybnny]

You have to spend days in advance getting ready, it's not a method like jumping where you can do on a whim and even with something like alcohol in your system.

How do you go through the preparation and fight SI? It must be such a difficult thing

 

[LapseInTime]

I sometimes make-believe that I am preparing the solution till I get my hands on SN. I keep telling myself "It's just a step, one final push". It's still difficult. I can't function without the thought of taking it but I too am afraid that, once times comes, it will be bad. I'll be watching over this thread.

 

[skatergirl]

You have to spend days in advance getting ready, it's not a method like jumping where you can do on a whim and even with something like alcohol in your system.

How do you go through the preparation and fight SI? It must be such a difficult thing

I'm literally just taking the sn on the day with no prep what so ever

 

[TetheredDan]

It's a really good question. As for myself, who decided to go with the exit bag method, I'm trying to convince myself that I deserve that, by taking piece by piece all the justifications of living. Constructing a solid logical idea about ctb reduces the psychological burden or the probability to chicken out at the last second.

 

[zekeyaeger]

I struggle with this too. I am planning to think of just taking the meto, after that sunken cost will make me take the SN. Let's see if it works.

 

[lnlybnny]

I struggle with this too. I am planning to think of just taking the meto, after that sunken cost will make me take the SN. Let's see if it works.

You have to take many deliberate meticulous steps in this method and everything seems very difficult emotionally

 

[deathproof17]

I'm literally just taking the sn on the day with no prep what so ever

Same. Simply going to mix it with water and force it down. My experience it's not good to overcomplicate and overthink things like this, the hardest part is simply getting off your ass and doing it. \

 

[lnlybnny]

Same. Simply going to mix it with water and force it down. My experience it's not good to overcomplicate and overthink things like this, the hardest part is simply getting off your ass and doing it. \

I'm having trouble even gathering courage to buy it

 

[canijo]

Im kinda forcing myself to do It, meaning that if i dont, ill be so fucked id prefer to do It.

By my schedule i should be almost ready to go, but i didnt really manage to get myself to actually do what i was supossed to. That is, prepare the house as if i was moving (everything clean & in boxes), prepare the few messages i wanna leave, gather accounts i prefer to delete...things like that.

I thought id be out if money by now, but seems i might survive until mid december. So i dont really think about It often and just numb myself until i hope i start moving when the date is closer.

By then it'll be either ctb or starve xD so i hope that is pressure enough. For the day i "plan" to just sleep mostly for the fasting, so i dont have to fight the need to eat consciously, or be anxious about it too much. I didnt manage to get meto, so i wont do the régimen. But even if i had i would just do a stat dose