Hi An hero Trans girl. My name is Renee. I am a trans girl also. Well I guess a trans woman I am over 18. I totally understand what you are going through. I was in a virtual world "game" called Second Life. We had customizable avitars. I fell for this female avatar. She just disappeared for 2 years. (She had ault avies I did not know about at the time.) One day she did not log in. I was heart broken in real life 2 years until I saw her and cursed her out. U was immediately over her . lol
It really does not matter if real, avi, or AI, you are grieving your loss of friend. The worst part about mine is I could not tell anyone. They would think I am a nut. I am 65, judt coming to terms with being trans. It has complicated my marriage.
I have gone through what you did. a Divorce and other stuff. It is really hard to have resilience when you need it most. I don;t have any answers except hang in ther. It will get easier. I know I have been through that and a lot more. Let me know if I can help or you want to talk. I have SI also about being trans.