How to beat survival instinct so I can go through with hanging

[sadsamantha]

Hey everybody, I posted something similar to this the other day, but this is sort of a follow up post with more information. I need to know if there is a way to make hanging more bearable, or at least if there is something that I can take that is easily obtainable (ie doesn't require a prescription) that might "calm" the survivor instinct that causes me to back out every single time, or make it less painful. People say that once you step off the chair with the noose around your neck, you immediately start to feel like you are going to faint and do end up fainting shortly thereafter, which is one of the reasons why this method is supposed to be so reliable, so much so that it can even happen on accident. But that is not what happens with me. Instead, I immediately experience excruciating pain, so much so that I instinctively step back onto the chair to stop it. IDK if that is survival instinct or I just have a really low pain tolerance, or worse, am I doing it wrong all together? Please, please help. I really do not want to be here. I am hurting so badly. I suffered a horrible, horrible, loss four days after Christmas last year, I feel like I have been in hell ever since, and now, even worse, the memories of the loss are starting to flood back and it is absolutely unbearable. I absolutely cannot do Christmas again this year. But I have to beat this survival instinct somehow.

When I posted this question the other day, people suggested SN and I did read up on that (Stan's Guide, I believe it was). However, obtaining all the materials required (including the SN itself) seems to be complicated and knowing me and my luck, I would probably end up with the wrong stuff.

 

[StrangeAndDeath]

The only thing I can think to recommend is Chris Tucker's five last acts and Geo Stone's suicide and attempted suicide books. They suggest padding the front of your neck so you don't squeeze your windpipe. Placing the noose high above your larnyx and around the the spots that your pulse is strongest, seems like it could help with the speed. But all in all, since you are doing a full suspension, you have your entire body weight pulling down on your neck. And that's guaranteed to be painful.

Much love dude

 

[AreWeWinning]

I have not had a serious attempt yet. I have only practiced where I held the other end of the belt in my hand, but as soon as I put my full weight on it, I start to pass out immediately.

It took me a good few practices to get the hang of it (pun intended). The biggest issue for me was that I did not put enough weight on it when I thought I did. If you step off the chair, then obviously this is not the problem in your case. Unless you don't really step off the chair, you just think you do. Your mind can play tricks on you.

Also, I used a belt, which is wider than a rope. How thick is your rope? Maybe try with a really thick rope or try padding it?

The other issue could be that you flex your neck muscles. Or you hold onto the noose with your hands. That could prevent you from passing out. The best is to relax your muscles and lean into it fast with full force.

I think, the trick is to get that first few seconds right. The part when you lean into it. If you get that right, you lose muscle tone and coordination within about 5 seconds and you are not able to back out or do anything about it anymore.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

If Chrismas is your problem, why don´t you travel to a place where they don´t celbrate it?

Coming to your hanging question, a thicker rope (for example 20 mm) will reduce the pressure and the pain. You only need a certain amount of pressure to compress your carotides, additional pressure causes only additional pain.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

Hey everybody, I posted something similar to this the other day, but this is sort of a follow up post with more information. I need to know if there is a way to make hanging more bearable, or at least if there is something that I can take that is easily obtainable (ie doesn't require a prescription) that might "calm" the survivor instinct that causes me to back out every single time, or make it less painful. People say that once you step off the chair with the noose around your neck, you immediately start to feel like you are going to faint and do end up fainting shortly thereafter, which is one of the reasons why this method is supposed to be so reliable, so much so that it can even happen on accident. But that is not what happens with me. Instead, I immediately experience excruciating pain, so much so that I instinctively step back onto the chair to stop it. IDK if that is survival instinct or I just have a really low pain tolerance, or worse, am I doing it wrong all together? Please, please help. I really do not want to be here. I am hurting so badly. I suffered a horrible, horrible, loss four days after Christmas last year, I feel like I have been in hell ever since, and now, even worse, the memories of the loss are starting to flood back and it is absolutely unbearable. I absolutely cannot do Christmas again this year. But I have to beat this survival instinct somehow.

Omg I tried to do this earlier today and that's how I felt exactly, I really don't want to be here anymore. I had so much pain due to not being able to breath and u quickly put my feet back on the chair. I know you can pass out quickly but I want to be able to manage or tolerate the pain before I actually pass out.

The only other physical pain that I experienced that was this bad was when I did an overdose, weirdly this is not as painful as an overdose but I guess it is not being able to breathe that is the main problem.