I feel terrible asking this question, but I guess it seems like the best place to do so. If you didn't have to overcome SI and you had your preferred method, how sure are you that you would ctb asap?
gottacheckout
Mage
- May 20, 2025
- 518
starboy2k
the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
- May 21, 2025
- 249
hmnow
Student
- Jul 29, 2025
- 142
99.9 percent certain - since I have rehearsed partial suspension several times - I am probably certain when the time comes, I will do it. I am tired of life
wishingonstars
Member
- Aug 6, 2025
- 89
If I had everything prepared right now (method, in a hotel, letters to everyone written, unofficial will written, and a video recorded and left for the police detailing that this was a suicide and not homicide) then I would not hesitate, 100% certain I would go through with it, the guilt of hurting my close family and friends and leaving my cat would eat me alive while I died but it wouldn't be enough to stop me.
I envy your preparedness and your will to hang on longer <3
Same. I wish I had the will or a meaning to hang on longer.
I live alone so I'm not sure I'd prepare that much. I don't care if my asshole landlord had to pay for the cleanup. He's half the reason I'm this depressed. I know that sounds awful. I think only two people would be affected by my decision but I don't think many would care at all. That's all that's stopping me, the guilt and the means to do so, and SI of course.
Same. Months ago I threw my method away. It consumes me that I messed it up.
I failed partial. I'm sorry you're tired of life. Same.
I wish things were better for us.
Last edited:
