How sure are you?

[copioushopelessness]

I feel terrible asking this question, but I guess it seems like the best place to do so. If you didn't have to overcome SI and you had your preferred method, how sure are you that you would ctb asap?

 

[gottacheckout]

I'm not ready to right now but I have many options ready to go when I am.

 

[starboy2k]

Id be dead by tomorrow morning.

 

[hmnow]

99.9 percent certain - since I have rehearsed partial suspension several times - I am probably certain when the time comes, I will do it. I am tired of life

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

I have no doubts and nothing holding me back besides access to means.

 

[wishingonstars]

If I had everything prepared right now (method, in a hotel, letters to everyone written, unofficial will written, and a video recorded and left for the police detailing that this was a suicide and not homicide) then I would not hesitate, 100% certain I would go through with it, the guilt of hurting my close family and friends and leaving my cat would eat me alive while I died but it wouldn't be enough to stop me.

 

[copioushopelessness]

I'm not ready to right now but I have many options ready to go when I am.

I envy your preparedness and your will to hang on longer <3

Id be dead by tomorrow morning.

Same. I wish I had the will or a meaning to hang on longer.

If I had everything prepared right now (method, in a hotel, letters to everyone written, unofficial will written, and a video recorded and left for the police detailing that this was a suicide and not homicide) then I would not hesitate, 100% certain I would go through with it, the guilt of hurting my close family and friends and leaving my cat would eat me alive while I died but it wouldn't be enough to stop me.

I live alone so I'm not sure I'd prepare that much. I don't care if my asshole landlord had to pay for the cleanup. He's half the reason I'm this depressed. I know that sounds awful. I think only two people would be affected by my decision but I don't think many would care at all. That's all that's stopping me, the guilt and the means to do so, and SI of course.

I have no doubts and nothing holding me back besides access to means.

Same. Months ago I threw my method away. It consumes me that I messed it up.

99.9 percent certain - since I have rehearsed partial suspension several times - I am probably certain when the time comes, I will do it. I am tired of life

I failed partial. I'm sorry you're tired of life. Same.
I wish things were better for us.

 

[Itsme19]

I'm in the process of getting what I need to ctb and it makes me feel both scared and immensely relieved to think about it. If I finally get what I need then I don't think there is gonna be much stopping me. I just need to get my other affairs in order like letters and things like that but tbh sometimes I think about just leaving with no explanation but I don't wanna do that to my family and hurt them more than I already have.