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enough of this

enough of this

Arcanist
Jun 4, 2023
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I was 12 when I came to know depression and knowing I didn't belong in this world. I always looked for love and connection with my family, particularly with my parents. But I never found it. My parents never knew how to show closeness and intimacy. As the years went by, the distance between the unconditional love which I truly am, and the darkness of my home life, widened. In an effort to survive, I grew farther from my true self, not closer. My depression and subsequent suicidal ideation, became my life, and is still with me today.

I've been to many therapists - psychologists, psychiatrists, hypnotists, "healers" - and the original pain of separateness has never left me.

I'm constantly looking for my way back home. The only thought that gives me relief, is that of suicide. I can't imagine leaving this insane world any other way.
 
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fedup1982

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Jul 17, 2025
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How old were you when you first watched Titanic the movie
 
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Eriktf

Wizard
Jun 1, 2023
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i have not watch it and i probably never will

How old were you when you first found SaSu
 
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princexhhn

prince of your heart! <3
Sep 26, 2023
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How old were you when you gained consciousness

(also why are half the people not following the game rules anymore TT)
 

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