Venting How much do you envy and admire those who ctb?

[FuneralCry]

I certainly admire those who manage to ctb as suicide really is something so unnecessarily difficult in this world, I see it as something admirable managing to permanently escape from all the suffering as only death can bring true relief from suffering and suicide is the way to find relief from everything, preventing all future harms in an existence that was completely unnecessary in the first place.

Suicide is self care to me as without existence one cannot suffer and the only thing that's desirable to me is permanent non-existence where one is completely unaware for all eternity.

I think that those who manage to escape with methods like hanging and jumping are especially so courageous, I admire their bravery as those methods scare me, it's horrible how a peaceful suicide isn't a human right, where we cannot leave in a guaranteed way in peace with no risks so I envy those who manage to find a way despite this.

And in general, I see only those who no longer exist as being fortunate as there's nothing appealing about having the ability to suffer endlessly, existence is a burden and a curse, it's terrifying to think of how there is unlimited potential to be tormented in existence all while one is trapped in a decaying flesh prison destined for nothing and nowhere.

I certainly envy those who are no longer burdened with existence and are now at peace, being unable to suffer isn't the tragedy, instead suffering is what is tragic.

 

[monday?]

I definetly envy every dead person but when it comes to admiration it really depends on they reason they caught the bus. Killing yourself over a girl/boy is pathetic but i really admire those who understood the pointlensess of existence because we are the descendants of stupid talking monkeys that just lived on autopilot and didn't even question why they are putting up with life in the first place. The smartest ones among us just end it without a fuss because they give zero fucks about anything in this world. I really wish I had that power to rationalize free from emotion.

 

[soonatpeace777888]

I do not have the same viewpoint as you in terms of existence being fundementally bad. I envy the dead because I have mental illness and trauma but I envy people who enjoy living even more.

 

[Professor K]

I do commend those who manage to surpass SI and successfully CTB, they've freed themselves from this society, cultural values and life, they have freed themselves from themselves.

 

[ReversedNthTerm]

Greatly

 

[PinkyStat]

I feel like they have done something that they should be proud of, this is most people worst fear and they have surpassed it and are now free from the system, they are like some type of idols to me that sometimes give me the determination to keep going with my plans, i really hope that some day I can achieve that too (i see them just like a random employee sees a CEO)

 

[Disappointered]

They are the real heroes of history.

 

[FeyB]

Envy no cause I can't envy the uncertainity of their situation rather it be returning to the ground or an afterlife.
Admire yes for their ability to self assered trough the act of firly ending their own existance