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Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
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Are a lot of you going to go to South America? I wish I looked into eol options before I got so bad I can't fly or walk around to stores. I could have maybe gone to Switzerland or go get N and ctb in another country. It would make it easy to not be stopped and worrying a little less about who finds me. I don't know how I can find N or get SN without it being a problem. Wish I knew someone who would send it
 
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appletree75

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Mar 20, 2026
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I wish to travel to South America. But I do not know how to proceed. Don't speak a word of Spanish. How can I find all the Veterinary stores in town, and in the suburban outskirts of town? Taxi drivers usually ask for a specific address.
Should I ask tell the taxi drivers, take me to the Veterinary stores in this area? (In English)
I really want to explore as many Veterinary stores as possible, but how to find them all is a huge challenge.
It seems no one has yet addressed this issue on the forum.
 
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urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
164
I wish to travel to South America. But I do not know how to proceed. Don't speak a word of Spanish. How can I find all the Veterinary stores in town, and in the suburban outskirts of town? Taxi drivers usually ask for a specific address.
Should I ask tell the taxi drivers, take me to the Veterinary stores in this area? (In English)
I really want to explore as many Veterinary stores as possible, but how to find them all is a huge challenge.
It seems no one has yet addressed this issue on the forum.
Sorry, I don't know. Post for someone in the country you want to go to and ask. I don't have the PPeH, it used to tell you where to go. I can't do anything anymore I'm so sick. I wish I could go get it. I'm bedridden. I have no way of getting a method. I'm sorry that you are looking for one.I don't know why I hope maybe something can help you instead.I wish you the best.
 
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knowledgeseeking

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Apr 5, 2025
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If I knew which place sold it and that they would sell it to me, I would book a ticket tomorrow.

If someone went and was able to get it, I would gladly reimburse them for the flights and the N to send me some.
 
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appletree75

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Mar 20, 2026
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Sorry, I don't know. Post for someone in the country you want to go to and ask. I don't have the PPeH, it used to tell you where to go. I can't do anything anymore I'm so sick. I wish I could go get it. I'm bedridden. I have no way of getting a method. I'm sorry that you are looking for one.I don't know why I hope maybe something can help you instead.I wish you the best.
PPeh has only a few addresses. I wish there is a way to find out about the name and address of all the Veterinary stores in town and in suburban area, is there an app for this?
People say these days bribery is a must. Has anyone ever tried this approach? Some one on this forum said they offered $200 and was rejected. But $200 is chicken feed, it does not even count as bribe. (Of course, I'm not encouraging anyone to bribe the owners, I'm just curious)
If I knew which place sold it and that they would sell it to me, I would book a ticket tomorrow.

If someone went and was able to get it, I would gladly reimburse them for the flights and the N to send me some.
How long have you been ill? Back in 2008 some Mexican store owner was literally begging Australians to buy N from his store. Putting up a sign on this store, saying he has what Australians want!
Even in 2014, there was a young guy who bought N from Peru and was even able to carry them back to strict Germany!
 
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appletree75

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Mar 20, 2026
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PPeh mentions someone is able to get N with the help of a local fixer. Someone on this forum said they he got N with a source on this forum. But how to find these fixers?
We seriously need more discussion about how to track down all the stores in each major South American town and suburbs.
I suspect that we fail to get N because we have not explored all the stores, or failed to be more generous with the purse. (of course I'm not encouraging anyone to bribe)
We are stuck with the few addresses mentioned in that book.

I'm not afraid to travel. I am willing to spend months in SA. But I really need to know how to track down all the stores in each of the city I visit. And how to find shady stores in the suburb areas?
If a group of people want to travel together to SA then please inform me, I would like to join, that would be a great help.
 
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I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Way too much effort for me. Rope I already have in my house will do just fine.
 
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urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
164
PPeh has only a few addresses. I wish there is a way to find out about the name and address of all the Veterinary stores in town and in suburban area, is there an app for this?
People say these days bribery is a must. Has anyone ever tried this approach? Some one on this forum said they offered $200 and was rejected. But $200 is chicken feed, it does not even count as bribe. (Of course, I'm not encouraging anyone to bribe the owners, I'm just curious)

How long have you been ill? Back in 2008 some Mexican store owner was literally begging Australians to buy N from his store. Putting up a sign on this store, saying he has what Australians want!
Even in 2014, there was a young guy who bought N from Peru and was even able to carry them back to strict Germany!
I know it's still around but with so many scams you would have to go get it yourself and use it there to be sure you wouldn't be stopped. I think it might be able to be mailed but I don't know.I mean I thought veterinarians use it, I would think a bottle or even powder might not be stopped. I guess xray would catch something suspicious, I don't know if drug dogs can sniff it out. Just wish I had a definite immediate way now.
 
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appletree75

Member
Mar 20, 2026
20
I know it's still around but with so many scams you would have to go get it yourself and use it there to be sure you wouldn't be stopped. I think it might be able to be mailed but I don't know.I mean I thought veterinarians use it, I would think a bottle or even powder might not be stopped. I guess xray would catch something suspicious, I don't know if drug dogs can sniff it out. Just wish I had a definite immediate way now.
If I can find a mail order option, I would simply go to the country where the seller lives, get an address and receive the order there. Because liquid N could almost never get passsed the customs.
I know it's still around but with so many scams you would have to go get it yourself and use it there to be sure you wouldn't be stopped. I think it might be able to be mailed but I don't know.I mean I thought veterinarians use it, I would think a bottle or even powder might not be stopped. I guess xray would catch something suspicious, I don't know if drug dogs can sniff it out. Just wish I had a definite immediate way now.
how ill are you? Is it a terminal condition? are you eligible for the Swiss option? There is another Swiss clinic opened last year. Right now there are 3 swiss clinics open to foreigners.
 
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