How many suicide attempts have you made?

[patheticgirl]

Just once, a few weeks ago. I thought it would feel relaxing, knowing I'll finally die but I just felt numb. It was a weird experience, for sure. I had to deal with the consequences of my actions after and well, just a tip, if you plan on CTB then make sure it works. Dealing with the aftermath sucks.

 

[DarkMoonFairy]

Why are you shocked. ?
I find it quite comforting actually. With other peoples situations similar or different.
Amongst helpful information. For those in need of it.
I'm glad that you're on a road to recovery I've been on / off meds such as yours. Sober / not sober.
Quetiapine
Venlafaxine
Mirtazipine
Pregabalin
It has helped / also worked against me.
We've had the similar thoughts.
"it's not going to get better" etc.
What if the energy or wanting it to is gone.
What is the point of living for a little longer?
What if you no longer want "peace and happiness" here. Or even care to look for it.

I do respect your well wishes for everyone. But you need to realize , as I can't speak for everyone.
Myself I am at ease with the choice I've made and want to make. I don't mean to being age up but it's a factor for me personally.
But you sound younger and full of fire still and that's great.

But as I said before I've found way more comfort on this website in the past week. Then I have for 1 year in my life.

I just wish there wasn't so much sadness and suicide in the world.. but that's how the world/ life is.. I respect whatever choice these people make it just really saddens me that so many people are planning to take there own life and aren't happy in life. I was just saying maybe try to hold on a little longer and something might happen and they find happiness or anything idk. I truly care for everyone even tho I do not know anyone here.. and I just wish everyone could find peace and happiness cause no matter who they are there is someone out there that loves them and will be so hurt if they do this. And even if no one believes this I believe that everyone has a purpose in life and I want everyone to be here to experience the joy that life can be. I understand it's hard sometimes truly I do.. but it's only temporary… also I'm 18 btw.. I've had depression and anxiety since I was about 12 and then soon after I developed very bad ocd which bothers me the most… but I'm hoping I can get better soon and I pray for everyone on here to find happiness and peace in life or the after life

 

[Lawliet]

i've honestly lost count. first few times was pills, another time was drowning in a river, tried suffocating myself. i've also tried ingesting bottles of shampoo while in a psych ward after learning i was going to the long term ward, shallow water blackout, and now i've got my hands on sn. part of my fear is that i was actually successful during one of my attempts and that the traumatic life i'm living now is actually hell. let's hope this next attempt is the final.

 

[squirley]

I just wish there wasn't so much sadness and suicide in the world.. but that's how the world/ life is.

It is. And it's a hard pill to swallow.
And that's only the things that you see. Imagine all the things you don't.
Not to say that there is not many many positive life experiences things as well.
Sometimes leaving. Is a way to stop unbearable sadness, pain etc.

. I respect whatever choice these people make it just really saddens me that so many people are planning to take there own life and aren't happy in life.

it is sad. But at the same time. I'm happy for people that find peace In their own way.

What does being happy in life mean? School..work...money...friends etc..? Just curious.

I was just saying maybe try to hold on a little longer and something might happen and they find happiness or anything idk.

and I'm sure this won't go unheard. In a positive way.

I truly care for everyone even tho I do not know anyone here.. and I just wish everyone could find peace and happiness cause no matter who they are there is someone out there that loves them and will be so hurt if they do this.

some people may not have anyone at all or maybe a life long partner is gone now.
But I hear you.
It's something that at first I know a few people will hurt. I've done hopefully enough to prepare them.

And even if no one believes this I believe that everyone has a purpose in life and I want everyone to be here to experience the joy that life can be.

Life can be joy. 100 percent.
It can also be the complete opposite.
Experiencing both has been quite the journey.

I understand it's hard sometimes truly I do.. but it's only temporary… also I'm 18 btw.. I've had depression and anxiety since I was about 12 and then soon after I developed very bad ocd which bothers me the most… but I'm hoping I can get better soon and I pray for everyone on here to find happiness and peace in life or the after life

Temporary. Is not always the case. Hardships. Pain. Etc. Can go on daily , monthly, yearly.
Sorry to hear you're going through some conditions and hopefully your treatment will help. Thank you for your wishes as well.

 

[AresCohere]

Depends on your definition of a suicide attempt. I've had complete breakdowns where I lose control of and tried to strangle myself or smthin, and have prepared for poisoning attempts with smaller but still dangerous dosages, but never have I ever tried fully a true attempt.

I want do make sure that when I try the first time, I will not fail.

 

[Body bobi]

Almost not scared of anything...

 

[cristaleyez]

2 or 3 times now? I've forgotten
They've all been overdose attempts so you know. They're pretty unreliable
Funnily enough I usually try to do it with my trazodone when helps w my insomnia. But it usually doesn't even knock me out. Last time is did 20-25 pills and didn't fall asleep until much much later lmfao.......

 

[Body bobi]

I have three failed attempts that nobody know about...all of em were overdose but I failed... I knew I suck at everything but bro those attempts were just miserable

 

[Rabbit-]

Never a full attempt, but I've made many half-hearted ones that were poorly thought-out or that I backed out of due to SI.

Putting handfuls of pills in my mouth but spitting them out, trying to drown myself in the bath- And, when that failed, trying to cause dry/secondary drowning by repeatedly ducking my head underwater and inhaling- laying down on the road, sometimes even taking naps there... I often tried to use a knife, too, to stab myself or to slit my throat or wrists, but the knife was dull and I never broke skin with it, so I don't really consider those attempts at all.

I once purposefully didn't move out of the way of a speeding car when crossing a crosswalk. I suppose that might count in some way, too. Unfortunately I was with friends at the time and one pulled me away; I ended up blaming it on bad reaction time. I still mourn the opportunity sometimes, though ultimately I'm glad they didn't have to witness something grisly.

 

[Lawliet]

2 or 3 times now? I've forgotten
They've all been overdose attempts so you know. They're pretty unreliable
Funnily enough I usually try to do it with my trazodone when helps w my insomnia. But it usually doesn't even knock me out. Last time is did 20-25 pills and didn't fall asleep until much much later lmfao.......

traz used to help with my insomnia too. now i'm up to 300mg and it does nothing

 

[LostinCyberspace]

Twice. First tested my luck with cutting and second time poisoning except my parents took my poison away...

 

[thgilrats]

I don't have any attempts with serious consequences. Though, there are lots and lots of half-hearted attempts. Each time I am waiting for the traffic light or in the subway, or on the train station or standing somewhere very-very high up, I just stand really close to the rails/road/edge and think that I need to make just one step further, feel a little bit of pain and then everything will be black, but I've never had any guts to do so.