How many suicide attempts have you made?

[Sigh_Sigh_Sigh]

I've made 1 failed attempt and plan for another attempt on 13th May.

 

[Ultracheese]

I've made a fair number of half hearted attempts but as for serious attempts I've made 7.

 

[SleepingLessons]

I would honestly say I've made no true attempts so far. I've stood with a noose around my neck a few times, but never tried truly. Always been too scared, or half-hearted. I'm hoping that this time is different - it feels it, but it's difficult to tell until you're standing there and feeling the pain of a rope around your throat.

I've made 1 failed attempt and plan for another attempt on 13th May.

13th of May is pretty close! You sure this is what you want to do?

 

[Lilythefenfen]

I've attempted four times personally, 2 of which I was forced to abort by LE. The other was just dumb luck where the gun (a revolver of all things) misfired twice.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

If drinking yourself to death is an attempt, then hundreds.

 

[EverythingIsPain]

3. All partial suspension hanging. Stood up twice and had the rope come untied on the third.

Hopefully 4th time is the charm.

 

[Lilythefenfen]

3. All partial suspension hanging. Stood up twice and had the rope come untied on the third.

Hopefully 4th time is the charm.

I might take a revolver misfiring twice as a sign from the universe lol. Mostly joking.

I know right? I consider it the universes cruel joke against me. Next time I will not miss CTB. Lol.

 

[EverythingIsPain]

I know right? I consider it the universes cruel joke against me. Next time I will not miss CTB. Lol.

Best of luck to you, mate.

 

[squirley]

I've made 1 failed attempt and plan for another attempt on 13th May.

Can I ask what the attempt was?

Mine was a bunch of different meds / booze.

 

[FuneralCry]

I haven't really, not a proper one. This is because we exist in such a hellish world where we are denied access to peaceful and reliable methods and where there are so many risks and complications involved in leaving this world, failing a ctb attempt certainly sounds so horrible to me and is what I fear. Sadly, in this anti-choice society suicide barely even feels like an option which is so horrible.

 

[Challu]

First n' last

 

[depressedlover]

Probably the third and last one tonight.

 

[PrettyKitty]

sounds insane but like 22 been trying since 11

 

[anywhere_else]

Twice seriously, both partial. First time I stood up from the pain, the second time the rail in my wardrobe broke and I just sat on the floor crying for about an hour.

There was a time when I climbed a 15-storey apartment block and stood with my toes over the edge. But that was half-hearted because if I'm honest I wasn't ready. I couldn't jump and stood for about 20 minutes hoping the wind would just catch me. The irony is it always seems windy where I live!

 

[StolenLife]

Two major ones, one dumb swallowing of random pills when I was a teenager and in october I tried to jump off a bridge but SI prevailed.

 

[SilentSadness]

I have not "gone through" with any attempts, it's just futile and won't succeed. It is unsurprising that so many have had more than five unsuccessful attempts in this world where suicide is made so difficult.

 

[avaruus]

Zero, I hate failing over anything, so I would rather go for 100% certainty than continue failing and disappointing myself again and again

 

[DarkMoonFairy]

I'm honestly shocked by this website.. I really hope that everyone here can find peace in life… not take ur life to feel peace..Honestly I'm suicidal or was in the past but was always to scared to actually do it. But I've always thought nothing gets better it's always gonna be like this and I wanted to die.. but I recently started taking a anti depressant (venlafaxine which is generic for Effexor) and it has helped me a lot so far… this website is truly haunting to me.. how everyone can just casually talk about taking there own life.. it's sad.. and in no way am I trying to make anyone mad or say that your weird blah blah blah.. I just wish that you all could get off this website and truly try to live just a little longer.. you never know.. you might find true happiness and peace here soon… anyways I care about you all and love you all and I hope everything gets better for each and every one of you

 

[unnormal9]

~37. In actuality (as in medically documented suicide attempts), 19 over the course of 7 years. I would mostly attempt by overdosing.
Though the lot of these poll data-gathering questions has my one good eyebrow arched.

 

[Abdullah]

I've failed the night-night method numerous times, just failed partial hanging today, had one OD failure. I'm just one big failure *sigh

 

[squirley]

I'm honestly shocked by this website.. I really hope that everyone here can find peace in life… not take ur life to feel peace..Honestly I'm suicidal or was in the past but was always to scared to actually do it. But I've always thought nothing gets better it's always gonna be like this and I wanted to die.. but I recently started taking a anti depressant (venlafaxine which is generic for Effexor) and it has helped me a lot so far… this website is truly haunting to me.. how everyone can just casually talk about taking there own life.. it's sad.. and in no way am I trying to make anyone mad or say that your weird blah blah blah.. I just wish that you all could get off this website and truly try to live just a little longer.. you never know.. you might find true happiness and peace here soon… anyways I care about you all and love you all and I hope everything gets better for each and every one of you

Why are you shocked. ?
I find it quite comforting actually. With other peoples situations similar or different.
Amongst helpful information. For those in need of it.
I'm glad that you're on a road to recovery I've been on / off meds such as yours. Sober / not sober.
Quetiapine
Venlafaxine
Mirtazipine
Pregabalin
It has helped / also worked against me.
We've had the similar thoughts.
"it's not going to get better" etc.
What if the energy or wanting it to is gone.
What is the point of living for a little longer?
What if you no longer want "peace and happiness" here. Or even care to look for it.

I do respect your well wishes for everyone. But you need to realize , as I can't speak for everyone.
Myself I am at ease with the choice I've made and want to make. I don't mean to being age up but it's a factor for me personally.
But you sound younger and full of fire still and that's great.

But as I said before I've found way more comfort on this website in the past week. Then I have for 1 year in my life.

 

[The_End_Is_Comfort]

Barely even one (Zero), a few years ago I was thinking on overdosing on my Trazodone prescription when I was holding the bottle in my hand, but that was before I knew that would not work. At least what stopped me from going through with such an attempt was my partners but they're gone now so...

 

[squirley]

~37. In actuality (as in medically documented suicide attempts), 19 over the course of 7 years. I would mostly attempt by overdosing.
Though the lot of these poll data-gathering questions has my one good eyebrow arched.

I've been considering this as a method.
As I've failed my pop a bunch of left over meds and down vodka didn't work out.
I'm not sure what substance you were using. But if it was anything like fenny etc. If a first time user was to nose or arm it. How would this experience go. Immediate OD? And out. Or would the body fight with vomiting etc.

 

[prtsn]

1, partial suspension. survival instinct kicked in and I panicked so bad that left me a kind of traumatic memory.

 

[gaeulfeels]

6.

 

[Kerrtu]

I estimate 4.

 

[waffels]

i have tried a total of three times, and all those three times SI kicked in and i failed

 

[hikki]

Three times. Last time I untied myself

 

[Ambivalent1]

Over9000

 

[Hirokami]

When I look back, it's closer to one and a half than it is two and both involved pills. The first time I considering downing a bottle of Benadryl, but I got too scared and backed out; ended up taking like one pill more than the recommended dosage and passed out from exhaustion.

Second time involved hydroxyzine where I was super close to taking a whole bottle, but my girlfriend physically forced me to spit every pill out when she caught me. Keep in mind I had no idea this forum, and perhaps not even the subreddit, existed during either of those times. I was honestly convinced that pills would've been enough to end things, considering how the media portrayed them. Though, now I know better.