How many people on here just crying for help

[SamK]

I personally see the majority of us committing suicide.. but I also do pray that those who are here and are still considering whether to, get the help they need or changes they need to make them want to live again.
I'm too far gone for any treatments and things. But I was at that point at one part of my life, I wasn't so sure if I ould do it. Now, my head is gone my mind is made up, it's just a matter of time.
But in a way like this site isn't for support to make us change our mindst. It might help open a few peoples eyes to the reality of how final suicide will be for themselves and everyone they know and love. That can be all it takes I guess, to nudge someone to try for another short time. No shame in that. But like others say, this site is for people who are seriously considering and planning, I don't think there are any here for attention maybe just people who are not 100% intent on dying maybe 50% who knows but I don't judge them I just hope they finally find a place of peace where they will know what is best for themselves and their own personal situation. <3

 

[windingdown]

I am beyond help, I'm afraid. I had a turning point in my life and can never get back to my interest in living.

I am here to develop courage and pass the time, personally. And hopefully contribute to other people in the small ways that I can, in the meantime.

 

[medusa]

Most of us don't want to die, but want the pain to stop. And so we find ourselves in that constant spiral of 'Should I do it? Or shouldn't I?' because in reality no one wants to die but if your existence is filled with non stop pain, death starts looking very sweet because it means the pain stops

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

There's no help for me, I'm here because this forum is the only place where we can freely talk about suicide without being censored.
I will have to kill myself eventually, it's only a matter of when.

 

[IfHeDiesHeDies]

Who knows? And does it really matter? If this website offers "help" or hope to the actively suicidals, wouldn't it be great? The fact of the matter is people visit this site for all kinds of reasons. Some look for methods, some want reassurance, some just wish to discuss with people who understand and be open about their intentions. Whatever the reasons, this place serves a very important purpose for people like us. I visit this site to find some peace in the my final hours as i have my method. My decision to end my life is final, it is easier for me to come to this conclusion as I have late stage ovarian cancer and if I don't kill myself, the cancer will. For others, the final leap may be much more difficult as they may not have a terminal illness and we all know overcoming the survival instinct is a real bitch. Anyway, I am glad I found the site and want to thank the admins and mods for keeping this site running.

 

[Final Escape]

and will never do it ?? Be Honest

I swing back and forth but I think I'm getting closer. The more time passes, the longer I continue to live a bad life, the more and more pain I accumulate, the stress of managing my day to day, I can't realistically continue like this much longer so I feel I have to go soon. The unexpected pregnancy did thwart my plans but now that, that's over I'm right back to working on taking myself out.

 

[Hunter]

I feel this post is equivalent to, "Oh lots of people here don't mean it, they're probably not going to kill themselves." Maybe I'm wrong... Is that what you mean by a cry for help?

It may be true, quantitatively speaking, that the minority of users here will die. But that doesn't reflect on the sincerity of the desire, maybe that it's hard to do by nature. Otherwise nobody would be on here for long and we'd all be dead. And if people choose to hang out and try to rehabilitate their lives, stay here and vent, there's no shame in that. I wish I could!

I don't know what people's motivations are for posts here. Best not to assume. I'd estimate that a majority of people here have sought out "help" through traditional means before being brought here.

 

[Hunter]

I personally see the majority of us committing suicide.. but I also do pray that those who are here and are still considering whether to, get the help they need or changes they need to make them want to live again.
I'm too far gone for any treatments and things. But I was at that point at one part of my life, I wasn't so sure if I ould do it. Now, my head is gone my mind is made up, it's just a matter of time.
But in a way like this site isn't for support to make us change our mindst. It might help open a few peoples eyes to the reality of how final suicide will be for themselves and everyone they know and love. That can be all it takes I guess, to nudge someone to try for another short time. No shame in that. But like others say, this site is for people who are seriously considering and planning, I don't think there are any here for attention maybe just people who are not 100% intent on dying maybe 50% who knows but I don't judge them I just hope they finally find a place of peace where they will know what is best for themselves and their own personal situation. <3

Such kindness.

 

[s_girl]

I think people come here for a variety of reasons including attention seeking and 'crying for help'. I believe the majority of users here who may have suicidal thoughts and ideation, but are not actively researching, planning and preparing to CTB in the very near future. I really thought there would have been more people ready to go now, in the short term, like me... but research shows that long term suicidal ideation and attempts often end in suicide in the long term anyway so who knows?

 

[samhelloall9]

I think people come here for a variety of reasons including attention seeking and 'crying for help'. I believe the majority of users here who may have suicidal thoughts and ideation, but are not actively researching, planning and preparing to CTB in the very near future. I really thought there would have been more people ready to go now, in the short term, like me... but research shows that long term suicidal ideation and attempts often end in suicide in the long term anyway so who knows?

i think we're on the same wave-length.

 

[samhelloall9]

No, for me it's more i lack resources. i'm just hoping i guess somehow my wishes will be answered, but that's wishful thinking. so i just lurk around. what else is there to do? yeah...but i certainly don't lack the will, it's just i lack the resources. i feel it beneath me to resort to just going out all will-nilly. i'm a perfectionist. so either i'm just waiting (which is just as fool hardy) or i'm just going to end up still living here for many more years to come. ah well.

and i'm not game enough or financially steady enough to order anything or even buy anything. so i just plod along, going through the motions. i mean there's nothing else to do but live.

 

[Self destructed]

No, for me it's more i lack resources. i'm just hoping i guess somehow my wishes will be answered, but that's wishful thinking. so i just lurk around. what else is there to do? yeah...but i certainly don't lack the will, it's just i lack the resources. i feel it beneath me to resort to just going out all will-nilly. i'm a perfectionist. so either i'm just waiting (which is just as fool hardy) or i'm just going to end up still living here for many more years to come. ah well.

and i'm not game enough or financially steady enough to order anything or even buy anything. so i just plod along, going through the motions. i mean there's nothing else to do but live.

I come here to find who are going through the same crap as me. Makes me feel like I'm not the only one. Will I CBT eventually if I can't beat the depression and anxiety. But until then I will keep coming back.

 

[Nofaith]

I come here to find who are going through the same crap as me. Makes me feel like I'm not the only one. Will I CBT eventually if I can't beat the depression and anxiety. But until then I will keep coming back.

Have you had depression and anxiety long?

 

[Self destructed]

Have you had depression and anxiety long?

Since beginning of summer. Keep sinking deeper and deeper. Anxiety has gotten to a new level though. Have anxiety all hours I am up now. It sux.

 

[Nofaith]

Since beginning of summer. Keep sinking deeper and deeper. Anxiety has gotten to a new level though. Have anxiety all hours I am up now. It sux.

So there's still a chance to turn it around.

 

[Self destructed]

Since beginning of summer. Keep sinking deeper and deeper. Anxiety has gotten to a new level though. Have anxiety all hours I am up now. It sux.

 

[Self destructed]

No. I tried partial last night and pulled off after 7 seconds felt was going to blackout Need to do it in a hotel. Its the insomnia and anxiety that brought me to this point. Once the depression comes back it will be time. I'm to far in the hole this time.

 

[Trashcan]

There are lots of reasons people come on here and varying levels of how suicidal someone is ranging from not at all to they're going to do something RIGHT NOW even if it's painful. Many of us fall somewhere in between. Some people aren't quite ready but they're serious about it and it's only a matter of time before the edge comes. Some people are conflicted and want to die, but there's a part of them that wants to live. Some people want to die but their survival instinct is too strong. Some people have more of a passive death wish but just want to go to a place where people understand them. Some people are waiting for things, such as their N to arrive, to save up enough money to get a certain method, or to have enough time alone to carry out their method. Some people are suicidal but have hope for the future (for example maybe they are teenagers and think it will get better when they move out) and this is the only place they can get support. Some people have kids and therefore have decided they won't ctb, but they want to and this the only place that they feel gets them. For some people, this place helps them because everyone gets it. No threats of being sectioned. No one throwing pro life platitudes at you.

This place helps people in multiple ways. And if it helps them, let them be. Even if it doesn't mean they'll end up ending their lives. This site it pro-choice, there should be no pressure on anyone to ctb (or to not ctb).

 

[Deleted member 847]

I don't think this the appropriate place for that. You're not going to see people tell you here "Hey pls, don't kill yourself, your family loves you and you still have a future" that's pro lifers job. This is mostly a place for people who are confident on their decision and have no other choice but to die.

 

[Jerryman]

I come here hoping someone has found the perfect off button - painless, undetectable, accessible, looks natural etc. I'd also love to find a way a terminal illness could be triggered, knowing I only have 6 months left would feel so relieving to me.

Aside from that, all the posts are interesting reads, seems people on here are very intelligent, the sort of people I could have decent conversations with.

 

[Ella Disenchanted]

Myself.. I'm screaming for help, like a rabid dog. I'm in horrendous amounts of pain. Someone for the love of god take it away.. The fact that there is no help out there for me and even if there was then they wouldn't be able to do much to help without a handy time machine is gut wrenchingly awful. A fact that constantly tears away the remnants of any emotional skin I have left.

I'm desperate for help. I really am. I've spent almost 20 years looking and never finding it. Life is completely unbearable for me. That is the reason I want to die. In my opinion a desire to be helped does not necessarily equal lack of intent to die.

Some happily go to their deaths, others are pushed. Everybody is different. I'll make my peace with death in my own way and hope that others have enough respect me to allow me the space to find the right moment to go.

 

[Aragon]

Myself.. I'm screaming for help, like a rabid dog. I'm in horrendous amounts of pain. Someone for the love of god take it away.. The fact that there is no help out there for me and even if there was then they wouldn't be able to do much to help without a handy time machine is gut wrenchingly awful. A fact that constantly tears away the remnants of any emotional skin I have left.

I'm desperate for help. I really am. I've spent almost 20 years looking and never finding it. Life is completely unbearable for me. That is the reason I want to die. In my opinion a desire to be helped does not necessarily equal lack of intent to die.

Some happily go to their deaths, others are pushed. Everybody is different. I'll make my peace with death in my own way and hope that others have enough respect me to allow me the space to find the right moment to go.

I can see that. Your name seems to be a pun on "Ella Enchanted." I've noticed there is no help, I can't even get any myself and I feel 100% the same. Time machine? Sadly you can't go back in time. Everything that happened in the past or yesterday is but a memory. I too feel emotionally wrecked, and no matter what I own or buy, it doesn't fix my problems. I went out for dinner earlier, a grand feast it was too, I still feel like crap. I find most people today are rude, and I'm starting to think about not wanting to be in a world with people like that. There is no escape, plus the being "forced" to endure stupidity on a daily base. I find my days on earth now are just repetitive and boring.

 

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[Doctorj115]

Did you really just use the word kvetch? That's brilliant. I don't know what you've been reading, are you Jewish or are you jew wise? It's only amongst a certain group that I see the word kvetching being used.

Ha I can't tell whether you're serious or not. I am not religiously Jewish, but ethnically I do have some European jew in me. 3 of my 4 immediate family names are German Jewish.

 

[PatKat]

Myself.. I'm screaming for help, like a rabid dog. I'm in horrendous amounts of pain. Someone for the love of god take it away.. The fact that there is no help out there for me and even if there was then they wouldn't be able to do much to help without a handy time machine is gut wrenchingly awful. A fact that constantly tears away the remnants of any emotional skin I have left.

I'm desperate for help. I really am. I've spent almost 20 years looking and never finding it. Life is completely unbearable for me. That is the reason I want to die. In my opinion a desire to be helped does not necessarily equal lack of intent to die.

Some happily go to their deaths, others are pushed. Everybody is different. I'll make my peace with death in my own way and hope that others have enough respect me to allow me the space to find the right moment to go.

Im sorry you are in pain, are you on anything to help?

 

[RacilyDank]

I for one, am not crying for help. I only start looking at suicide seriously when I'm at the point of beyond help.

I have an appointment with a psychiatrist this Friday that I got referred for when I was still looking for help. I don't know why I'm going.

It took seeing three different doctors to get the referral and a two month wait. Since then everything's got so much worse that now I don't want the 'help'.