How many people know you are suicidal? Are they close?

[hmnow]

Id say only three people know I'm suicidal and they only know me online

There are no real life friends that know and don't catch on when you I bring up topics of suicide

 

[Namelesa]

Basically anyone I am somewhat close with and some others knows I am suicidal, family, any online friends, any metal health worker. I find it very hard to hide at all cus of how emotional I am.

 

[pomie]

6 people or so irl, 3 of them close. Doesn't make a difference if 1, 2, 3 or none. Nothing changes for me at the moment

 

[trist]

my parents knew five years ago when i got hospitalized after my first (and only) attempt, but they think i've been ok since. the only other person that knew was my best friend but she ctb'ed last month so no one knows about it now.

 

[itsgone2]

Good question. I'd say none though therapist knows I talk about it. I told her if it was easy I'd do it. If you could flip a switch I'd flip it. But there's no switch. Others know I'm acting very differently, but wouldn't suspect suicidal.

 

[LackOfDetermination]

I think my sisters may suspect I'm somewhat depressed, but definitely not that I'm suicidal.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

Nobody

 

[ABadPerson]

My family know due to me landing in intensive care once but they don't care, outside of them nobody else; people usually think I'm just an interesting guy irl.

 

[ponderingkoala]

I'll say nobody cause I'm really good at hiding it plus I'm philosophical and a bit of a narcissist (the good kind lol. I care about people a lot but I can't help but always think about my own life and problems plus i over compensate with being kind). Majorly i can't be that vulnerable to anyone so no just me and my lonesome.

 

[ineedsomerest]

nobody at all. I'm not close with anyone and have been alone for over a decade now. I feel like a martian here.

 

[homeboundcripple]

Tell no one, not worth the risk.

 

[Sadocan]

I told my family I was suicidal way back in 2022. Got scolded by a distant uncle, then everything went on as usual. They never spoke about it again. I don't think they cared all that much.

 

[SparkleWater]

I think they know. Especially my bf. My dad knows. My mom knew. But I think they thought I had it under wraps for the most part. Don't think I'll actually do it.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Basically anyone I am somewhat close with and some others knows I am suicidal, family, any online friends, any metal health worker. I find it very hard to hide at all cus of how emotional I am.

Exactly the same scenario. God bless their souls, they try to help me, keep me company, but I'm too far gone and I don't want to be here after all I've been through.

 

[Gronwell]

My parents are well aware, as well as a few close friends.
Only one person knows that I've just bought the nitrogen for my exit bag tho.

 

[brownhorse]

I (separately) told my mother and a close friend that I was suicidal. Both were kind about it, but I don't think either realised how frequently and intensely I feel this way; I believe they both think I was just having a particularly low point that has since passed. I told another group of friends when we were all extremely drunk, but I don't know how seriously they took it, and I think (and hope) that they don't remember the conversation. Sometimes I wish I never told anybody because I don't want to worry anyone, other times I desperately want people to know how bad I feel, and want them to be concerned. Probably because I imagine it would make them more understanding/forgiving of my many failures in life.